kill the drama.: 04/01/2005

I got a haircut today but it's more of a trim than anything else. Random lol

Jenn y Amy --> Danke muchos for calling me throughout Bamboozle Day 2! I wish that I could've gone :(

I GOT THE NEW FOB CD IN THE MAIL TODAY. It's amazing. It really is. I can't stop playing the life out of it. Ahhh.

F.E.W. Fundraiser-slash-highschoolrockbandsshowcase = amusing.
thelovelyonewasthere. lol

JamisonParker/LolaRay show was awesome. Ahh.
+ JamisonParker's set
- Playing only Your Song 'Notes and Photographs' and the rest were new...
+ Dancing upstairs to Lola Ray
+ "Big ups to the dance party upstairs!" John (singer)
+ Talking to Jamison for a long, long time. He's so fucking awesome I can't even describe it. He is our heart lol

etc., etc.

I HAVE SO MUCH HOMEWORK THIS WEEKEND.

I've got a bad feeling about this. No, not 'this.' Everything-

But aside from that, it was the T4s last real day of school...(MariaJenSigh) now they’ve got a week or so to study for IB exams which should be killer.

My head hurts, it's been like this for a day or something. And this disgusting sinking feeling mixed with butterflies in my stomach. Anxiety and Dread, probably. Excitement for Fall Out Boy in SIX DAYS?? It's too good. That show will make my life a little bit. It's too good to get fucked up.

I haven't seen the FOB Fuse tape cuz it's at Aisha’s house. Maria said that I looked dead during the second take of DANCE DANCE.. Eh, my legs are still cramped from that and then Acceptance yesterday. I haven't finished watching the Release the Bats DVD, either. Le OY indeed.

-Get priorities straight, bitches. For serious, it's not cool.

-I don't owe anybody anything, including an apology. I gave fair warning of my intention to dash right after class to go to Fuse whether it was alone or not. Can't blame that. Hustle Hustle, just to get that out of the way.

-I like what we have going on here. Sadist moment, it'll pass soon. Misery loves me.

Oh, and way to become BFFL with the Sony A&R dude Acceptance thanked on their Phantoms CD for a day muahaha. Iiiilll connections indeed!

Since I am on a crazy rant, I'm slowly losing love/faith in the New York music scene. Thank you, Myspace! I don't know, I was in love with the Scene for a while and now I think it's becoming a miserable joke on my part. Taking up too much of my time. Watch something happen that will make me fall right back down the rabbit hole. But even so, I hate how it's like a disease that keeps on spreading. If you're safe from being neurotic then stay that way. Stay with what you know. Stay with your brand new converses and Top 40 countdowns, at least you know it. It’ll save me a lot of agony.

Sheesh.

“Namedrop namedrop oooh look at me aren’t I freaking hilarious? Yahyo of course!” For you. Exclusively. On the internet too, lame. Cuz where else could you go and read this without company?

Delete day coming soon when I lose any pride I still have intact.

At freaking 11PM last night I got an email from the Acceptance Mailing list saying they were randomly playing a [CD Release] show as Good Charlotte's opening band at some Radio promo thing. Run off sentence but I care little. I emailed the link and ten minutes later and got two tickets which MADE MY NIGHT.

Fast forward past melodramatic day, me and Riana went to Radio City and got my tickets, then bumped into these dudes from the Acceptance show at the Tribeca Rock Club when I got in somehow but they didn't.. the guy sed Jason took down his number to call him next time they have a show. AWW. Blah blah, we had general admission and I freaked out when I saw Jason come onstage during soundcheck. Aaaahhh!

Randomly during their first song, as we were freaking out and dancing and singing and all that jazz, some guy was like 'Do you want to move up to the front?' Me: YES. And he gives me and Riana tickets to go past general admission and up to the the front.. like 10 rows back or something. It ruled so badly.

Setlist in no order:
Different
Permanent
So Contagious
Bleeding Heart
The Letter
Take Cover
...and two or more songs, I can't remember their proper names off the actual album..

Afterwards, I waited a bit with Riana and these guys who knew her and got to talk to Jason in the middle of Jason being swarmed by girls. STUD. He's lovely. And I talked to Christian and Kaylan quickly before I left (they were loading up the van).

ONE WEEK!

Right after school Aisha Maria and I made a mad dash out of math class and out onto the FDR. Where a free cab miraculously appeared to whisk us off to Fuse to see FOB. We got out early and ran in the rain like we were on the track team.. we were the last few people allowed inside the studios because we were lucky to have Riana and Tiggs there early to tell the Fuse people we were in a cab...

We ended up waiting almost three hours to get let into the studio. Before, Maria and I went into the bathroom and saw Pete Joe and Andy and said Hi... they split us into three groups that were supposed to rotate but somehow we managed to stay inside the whole time and not go into the other room.. They did Dance Dance (twice), Sugar (twice), Saturday, Grand Theft Autumn, Sixteen Candles, and Lawyers..

Dancing galore!

We then waited for over an hour for them to come out. I love them so much. They all looked so sick, tired, and worn out. Le oy.

OMFG IM SO FREAKING EXCITED FOR FUSE AHHHH

Really, I’m about to fall over.

AHHH.

Thursday-

Went to get Jack's Mannequin tickets @ KF after my piano lesson, then I took the subway to the iPod store and try to get my iPod fixed but found out I needed an appointment. =SHIT. Then I went to the Bowery Ballroom and stood there for over an hour for my Acceptance tickets. AND NOBODY BOTHERED TO TELL ME I WAS WAITING AT THE WRONG VENUE even though I made it clear I wasn't there for whatever loser senior citizen band. So then I walked freaking 11 blocks to the Mercury Lounge and found out it CLOSED THE SAME TIME I WAS LET IN AT THE OTHER PLACE. AAAHHH. Bitches. Really. So I'm going there again in a few minutes. For serious, people suck.

Friday-

Bleh. [Haircuts aren't always that hot.] Oh, but some Soho shopping was fun.. I got sunglasses at Flying A cuz i needed them and I wanted the hot bag lol.. then met up with Mariaaaa for Japanese food with Aisha and some Diesel shopping (they're so HoboXcore) where WE FOUND fXc's JACKET. lmao! Then a mini Jager party at Marias.. Jeez that an Benadryl at night for my allergies= passed out in bed by 11.

Aujourd'hui-

Script reading for community service with Helen and Claire @ some house in the village for a Chinese tour by Red Dives. Yeah.

I think I'm on parental controls with a time limit again.

...eeeeeeww.

On a lighter note, we're back to April showers tomorrow according to the cracked out weatherman. Enjoy the beaaaaauutiful weather while it lasts!

Ahh we had a fire drill today during SEVENTH PERIOD. Wtf indeed, but it was fucking fantastic. Fab.

I missed Acceptance on FUSE today because I don't have that damn channel. Poop.

"Happy 420 if you're into that sort of thing" lol

For those of you who don't have tickets to The Bamboozle Festival next weekend, you can still come town and take part in the fun! Due to overwhelming e-mails and phone calls from non-ticket holders, the event organizers have set up multiple FREE stages, giving everyone an opporitunity to be a part of this year's event! Check the replaies for more details.

Some of the artists scheduled to appear for FREE are...
Action Action
Anberlin
Big D and the Kids Table,
Spitalfield
The Black Maria
A Wilhelm Scream
With Honor
Acceptance
Idiot Pilot
The Street Dogs
Minus the Bear
Bayside
Burning Bright
Allister
Say Anything
Moneen
The Honorary Title
Wakefield
Van Stone
Melee
The Skake, The Cross, The Crown
The Explosion
The Academy Is...
Circa Survive
JamisonParker
Number One Fan
Gatsbys American Dream
This Day and Age
Spill Canvas
Gym Class Heroes
Punchline
Over It
Lola Ray
and many many more!!

There will also be additional tickets available for sale the day of the show at venues like The Stone Pony and Wonder Bar who will be housing bands like Funeral for a Friend, The AKA's, Bleeding Through, Lucero, The Chemistry, Emanuel, Kane Hodder, Saosin, It Dies Today, The Bled, Army of Me, Boys Night Out, Fear Before the March of Flames and more! So get there early... entery is on a first come, first serve basis!

Be sure to check www.thebamboozle.com next week for the complete festival schedule!

(http://www.absolutepunk.net/showthread.php?t=68392)

I definantely just freaked out a little bit.

I've definantely fooled my mother into believing that I have the talent and luck of 'discovering bands' with potential (like making it big), e.g. Fall Out Boy and Acceptance, in order to justify my contant trips to FUSE. I don't have talent I just end up falling in love with bands for good reason and their talent makes them successful.

I love spring.

I love running around in t-shirts.

Je deteste my arms.

I can't catch to save my life in softball.

My bangs have begun to flip; I need a haircut... badly.

I was definantely prancing around and raving like a lunatic at the WRONG TIMES, like when I left school and I was hollering and I turn around to see what I've been avoiding all freaking day since I didn't feel so great.

Just when I thought I had gotten over seasonal allergies-slash-extreme hayfever, I catch myself sneezing to death in history. Pollen, not?

This is random, but sometimes people just shouldn't get haircuts. It's not right lol. Riana and Aisha: it's like if fXc shaved his head. Then we'd all sit at home and cry. As long as whoever doesn't cut that lovely floppy hair of his I'll tolerate it.

Crikeys.

Not to offend anyone in any way, but...

The new Pope (Benedict XVI) looks frightening. Scary. And reminds me of Chucky.

I hate having bad days when it's beautiful weather outside... it was ridiculously warm today actually. Sighs I love spring.

Shrugs.

Still a pessimist.

Quote my dad: "I hope when you go away to college, you won't come back." And later: "You know what I think about you. Check your cell phone voicemail to hear about it." "I cut off ties with people. Ask your mom. I don't scold people, I get right to the point. I cut them like a razor."

It kind of hurts when you hear your dad saying this.

-My iPod definantely broke in some sense of the word.= trip to the iPod store or a new iPod. Groans.
+Fall Out Boy on Conan O'Brien May 10th. Watch it! What's on that day too? ACCEPTANCE, HEAD AUTOMATICA, A STATIC LULLABY, and VENDETTA RED. = AHHHH! But I can only stay for Acceptance And Head Automatica. Ahh anyway.
+APRIL 25th: FOB @ FUSE. For serious, it's going to make my life.
+APRIL 30: PHANPLAN @ KF (aka dinner and a movie)
+MAY 3rd: FOB Dance Party @ Irving.
+MAY 7th: Punchline?
+JUNE 7th: fXc lmao

College tripping to Vasser (beautiful campus, good curriculum, pansy guide), Yale (extremely impressive and an awesome tourguide), and Wesleyan (less than my expectations)... I think I liked Yale the most even though I know for a fact I'll never get in. Backup plan is to go to a respectable school and then transfer over or something...

Open Mic on Friday was awesome. PETERPAN COMPLEX, MOTHERFUCKERS! Whooo. Even if their own song didn;t work out the covers were great.. and I actually really liked the T1 keyboard whatever else thing that was... and the T2 band with Simon and Bachman and whoever else... and Sarah's slam poetry ... and Choung and Tim's piano thing....

Definantely stared at [blank] alot because I'm pathetic and he was sitting across from me and it's not like I could avoid looking at him. Oh god and when he came in Maria tried to grab the camera away from me to take a stalker picture put I lunged at her and grabbed it back cuz that wouldve been so bad lol

Ew I'm so fucking exhausted. Today was beaaaaautiful spring weather so I might ditch HW for a while and go walk around..

Misery loves me.

I had a horrible, horrible day.

UGH.

This hasn't been a good week by any means (Thanks, Myspace). I'm so freaking relieved it's Friday tomorrow. Then I'm off to another college trip.

I spent today ranting, bitching, backstabbing, hurting, dramatizing, and whining.

I think the only good thing today was that Maria pointed out that I'm good at being discreet. e.g. when i oogle at The Boy like there's no tomorrow. Jeeeeez.

(BACK THE FUCK DOWN.) So maybe I don't have my PRIORITIES bullshit straight, it's funny how little I fucking care at this point.

Fall Out Boy is love. I can't wait for FUSE and the Irving show. If anything fucks either of those up I'll fuck it up.

ARGH, don't mess with me when I'm this edgy.

btw- Thanks Luis for taking Maria to TBS lol. Maria: THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR CALLING ME DURING TBS/THE FORMAT/JIMMY EAT WORLD!!

I seriously had the worst day today. Don't even try and match it. Without going into details, Fate hates my guts and has decided to taunt me. Endrant.

I growled and snapped at people today and it felt good. PMSing sucks a cow.

20 days.

Sometimes the FALLOUTBOYLOVE Community on LiveJournal rocks.

...Like when SIX SONGS OFF THE NEW ALBUM ARE POSTED FOR MY DOWNLOADING PURPOSE.

Aisha and I cried. Sang along.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

Back to school! Groggy and wired at the same time, the trick is tea-with-milk-and-two-spoonfuls-of-sugar before leaving the house.

I got a 6+ on my enlish commentary... then I got my SAT scores back and felt like I could do better, so here's to taking it again in September/October and never getting into a decent college! Whoooooo!

Open mic night on Friday-- I'm performing.

No, I lie, but the PETER PAN COMPLEX is. Aisha, Hanky, Tima, and Claire are covering the Kelly song by The Movielife and Blitzkrieg Bop by the Ramones.

Should be hella good times

Up before noon = major achievement even though I'm really groggy and spaced out.

The best part of my day-- THE WORLD LIT PAPER ISN'T DUE MONDAY!!

...says Isar. Who told Misha. Who told Jenny. Who told me. Who fell on the floor and cheered.

It's too, too good.

Alas, school tomorrow. I feel like break just started yesterday. It was fun while it lasted lol. And I still have to finish Perfume, my chinese essay, and 2 physics labs. Shitters.

I'm back from visiting

BROWN
WELLESLEY
AMHERST
TUFTS

College, and I'm exhausted. Good times indeed lol

More later. I'm on the edge.

Next weekend I'm doing

VASSER
YALE
WESLLEYAN (did I spell that right?)

.

Jeez but heck yes.

Going on a college trip with Jenny and Misha and about an hour... whoooooo... back on Sunday.

It's beautiful outside. Screw hoodies and blazers, prance around in a t-shirt and relish it.

I have a bruise on my leg and a tiny cut on my forehead from the show yesterday lol

Before I forget, we had amazing weather today.

Like real SPRING weather.

73 degrees, motherfuckers!

=tshirts and over dressed minions like myself who walked out the door with tshirt, hoodie, and blazer and quickly stripped down to the tshirt as soon as I stepped outside.

I had an awesome day after all, and still got some homework done. YES BITCHES.

Went to FUSE with Aisha and her cousin Khalid to see HOT HOT HEAT and MUSE. Equals excitement to its fullest. Got there, found Amanda Heather and Tranette, proceeded to hang around for a while... until Hot Hot Heat walked in and my eyes bulged and I had eye sex with their singer. He winked at me and people saw. I was happy after that. Then Muse came in but I only saw Dom's back. Poop. When Hot Hot Heat came on I flipped. Except their new guitarist kept flirting with theses two BIMBOS in front of us. Bleh. I think Muse made my life a little bit. I saw Dom's back and thought it was Matthew and started squeaking to Aisha 'AHMUSEISINTHEHALL!' It was truly pathetic. After their segment I almost ran after them.

FUSE lies. Never believe them when they say that the artists have left even when you can see that their vans are still there. Yes, bitches, theyre still here. Aisha Khalid and I started walking cuz we wanted to get to The Spirit venue for the LTJ show, and then I had the idea of calling Tranette to ask her to call me if Muse/Hx3 came out. As soon as she picked up she said "Oh..Muse just came out.." and I FREAKED OUT and RAN 3 blocks in about 10 seconds. I really did. All three of them were there but I only got a picture and autograph from their drummer. SO HAPPYMAKING.

We walked from 33rd and 6th to 27th and 5th and then to 27th and 10th. Found the venue, ran in in the middle of HiPV's set (Whoo American Classic!). They were awesome... then we found people, said hi, blah blah. Danced like no other to Allister. Lovelovelove. Riana: "Scotty has an asian fetish." We went Scotty hunting lol. Talked to HiPV Rob and Chris.. Allister Kyle.. it was good times. And Aisha and Amanda went dancing happy during Less Than Jake..

Aisha: Marcy was lovely. Think aboot it.

OBviously, I'm not meant to ever see Hidden in Plain View again. The last time I missed them I was @ SAT class and Aisha had to call me the entire set. Today they're randomly playing with Allister and LTJ and I must go. My head's about to explode cuz I've been sitting here trying to finish fucking homeowork. I think I'll stay for HIPV even though I'm a bad fan and still havent bought their CD since I've been crazy broke. EXCUSES EXCUSES I must go. Mustmustmust.

I missed two Hot Hot Heat in-stores, but at least I get to see them @ Fuse tomorrow.

Let's start whining cuz we can't go to Bamboozle and I'm procrastinating. I wanted to go to Saturday but it got sold out. Fuckkersssss

FRIDAY, APRIL 29TH, 2005
GATES: 4:00PM
ACCEPTANCE
ANBERLIN
ANTERABBAE
BLEEDING THROUGH
BLOOD BROTHERS
CAFFEINE
DROPPING DAYLIGHT
EXTOL
FINCH
FLASHLIGHT ARCADE
FUNERAL FOR A FRIEND
HASTE THE DAY
I CAN MAKE A MESS
IT DIES TODAY
KANE HODDER
KEVIN DEVINE
LUX COURAGEOUS
MINUS THE BEAR
MOTION CITY SOUNDTRACK
NIGHTMARE OF YOU
OUTSMARTING SIMON
PAULSON
RECEIVING END OF SIRENS
RELIENT K
ROSES ARE RED
SARCASM
SPITALFIELD
STRAYLIGHT RUN
THE EVAN ANTHEM
THE GOODWILL
THE HONORARY TITLE
THE MODERN
THE SILENCE
THRICE
WITH HONOR

SATURDAY, APRIL 30TH, 2005
GATES: NOON
A FALL FROM GRACE
A STATIC LULLABY
A THORN FOR EVERY HEART
A WILHELM SCREAM
BANDCAMP
BEDLIGHT FOR BLUE EYES
BIG D AND THE KIDS TABLE
CAFFEINE
CHASE PAGAN
CHRONIC FUTURE
COPELAND
CRIME IN STEREO
EMERY
EMMANUEL
FALL OUT BOY
FOR FELIX
FURTHER SEEMS FOREVER
GATSBY'S AMERICAN DREAM
HIDDEN IN PLAIN VIEW
HOT ROD CIRCUIT
JAMISONPARKER
JESSIE POLAND
JOHN RALSTON
LAKOTA
LOLA RAY
LOVEDRUG
LUCERO
MAE
MELEE
MIDTOWN
MONEEN
NEW AMSTERDAMS
NUMBER ONE FAN
OVER IT
PARAMORE
PIEBALD
PISTOLITA
RUFIO
SAOSIN
SCREW TOP DETENATORS
SENSES FAIL
SILVERSTEIN
SMALL TOWNS BURN SLOWER
STRIKE.FIRE.FALL
THE ACADEMY IS
THE AUDITION
THE BLED
THE CHEMISTRY
THE EARLY NOVEMBER
THE FIGHT
THE SPILL CANVAS
THE STARTING LINE
THIS DAY AND AGE
VAL EMMICH
VAN STONE
VEDA
VENDETTA RED
WAKEFIELD

SUNDAY, MAY 1ST, 2005
GATES: NOON
ACTION ACTION
ALKALINE TRIO
ALL AMERICAN REJECTS
ARMOR FOR SLEEP
BAYSIDE
BEAR VS. SHARK
BOUNCING SOULS
BOYS NIGHT OUT
CATCH 22
CIRCA SURVIVE
CLASSIC CASE
DAYS AWAY
DEAD 50'S
DOWN TO EARTH APPROACH
FEAR BEFORE THE MARCH OF FLAMES
FLOGGING MOLLY
GYM CLASS HEROES
HELLOGOODBYE
HIGH SCHOOL FOOTBALL HEROES
IDIOT PILOT
JINXED
KANE HODDER
KNUP
LET IT BURN
LEY ROYAL SCAM
MADISON
MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE
NORTHERN STATE
NORTHSTAR
PUNCHLINE
SAY ANYTHING
SCATTER THE ASHES
STREET DOGS
SUBURBAN LEGENDS
THE AKA'S
THE BLACK MARIA
THE CHARIOT
THE EXPLOSION
THE LOVED ONES
THE SLEEPING
THE SNAKE, THE CROSS, THE CROWN
THESE ARMS ARE SNAKES
THROW RAG
UNDEROATH
WAKING ASHLAND

I wish I were outside. Weatherbug is taunting me with a 'current temperature of 62 degrees' and I can see how beautiful the weather is outside of my window. I want to shop or something. Girly moment indeeeed. Instead I'm stuck inside doing two planning labs for Physics. Ugh.

I woke up in a weird way. Around 10 some dude called my cell.

Jen: Hello?
Guy: Hey, Jennie?
Jen: Yeah...
Guy: Guess who it is?
Jen: Mmm Who?
Guy: It's your lover!
Jen: What.
Guy: It's Ismael!!
Jen: AH!
Guy: It's your lover from the kitchen!!
Jen: Wait, what the fuck. How did you get my number. What the hell.

Ok. I did know a guy named Ismael when Aisha Maria Tima and I were in the park with him and they were playing a match of soccer as I was wilting from a sidestitch. And he was cute and Maria tried to get his number before he left lol, but this was really just a what the fuck thing.

After a minute or two we both realized we were talking to the wrong people. The thing is, tho, he kept calling me. He called like five or six times and each time I was like LISTEN I DON't KNOW WHO YOU ARE STOP CALLING. And one time a girl was like 'Jennie?' Me: 'Oh god not again' and then she handed it over to the guy.

So whoever has the number 917 365 8147, please go fuck yourself and don't keep calling me.

Sunday night - Irish Night @ Tima's
.....except it inevitably became a Cillian Murphy movie marathon because he's the most fabulous Irish actor out there.

Movies:
Disco Pigs
InterMission
28 Days later
Boondock Saints

I love Cillian Murphy more than life. Let's just leave it at that lol

Monday - Straylight Run!

Luis won tickets = the only reason I got in. Maria bough a ticket from a fucking scalper in front of Irving for $30 and turns out it was pre-used, which meant it was useless. Ew.

And in addition to that, we missed Spitalfield because nobody thought they were going first. Grumble Grumble. The Honorary Title, Gratitude, Minus the Bear, and Straylight were all really great. The first 4 bands were fully danceable but Straylight made me really emo. Oy lol

Brandon from the Movielife/Nightmare of You was there and I grilled him by accident. After the show, I chatted with MArk from Spitalfield and babbling nonstop. Learn to stop me, please.

Oh yeah, namedropping must be controlled.

Shitty, SHITTY weather. Brings on a whole new meaning to April showers when you walk home from getting tested for Celiac at Columbia Medical Center, and after 1 1/2 blocks you're soaked head to toe regardless if you used your umbrella or not.

I had eye sex with a really cute boy on the subway as my mom took a nap/ LOL, for serious.

Um... Irving tomorrow for FOB tix and dinner with Falafel and the Russian.
And Monday --> Straylight Run @ Irving.
And Tuesday --> Irish night @ Tima's hopefully
And Wednesday --> Hot Hot Heat (Hx3 like what) @ IMX
And Thursday - Sunday --> College Trips with Jenny

I'm never finishing my
2 Physics Labs
1 World Lit Paper
1 whole chapter in History book
1 English book (Perfume)
1 Chinese essay

Sighs indeed. I need a hug lol

I'm growing weary of all these deaths in the news...

e.g. Terri Schiavo, Johnny Cochran, Perdue guy, Mitch ____ (comedian; it's funny I can't remember his last name), and inevitably the Pope.

Sighs. Makes you rethink your position and thankful to be alive.

Emoemoemoemoemo.

I haven't been outside since Wednesday.

Creepy--

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/7209312/?GT1=6305

kill the drama.

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