kill the drama.: 10/01/2004

i can't be bothered. its not worth my time. why do i even give a shit. its so cliche. who doesn't. yeah i know. who isn't? well, duh. yeah. i'm over that. that's so stupid, why do they/i care? everyone's the same and nobody stands out. so why do they try. if every tries then theyre all the same again now arent they. keep in touch!xoxoxo. yeah, so? zzzzzzz.

im laughing so hard im crying because misha is googling the life out of a certain someones life and its so completley ridiculous yet im supporting e-stalking. le sigh. its nice to see somebody who is so into their future.

i dont feel like myself today. bleh. i feel like im floating and time is going by very slowly... and that mound of homework on my desk? i cant seem to go near it. such a problem. its halloween but i dont feel like doing anything. aisha maria hanky tima and i think nej are going to jekyll and hyde, tiggs is at a FOB show in florida, riana is at punchline in jersey. and me? im sitting here whining onto this piece of crap.

happy halloween to everyone and happy bday to frank iero!

right now i am so badly infatuated with my chemical romance. *stares blankly at the new AP, picture with mikey and gerard, cd player, and MTV bracelet all strewn over the table* le sigh. the new AP article is so happy making its sick.

mmm feeling very tired and unrushed even though i have an english oral to do plus studying plus piano practice. bastards.

yesterday after school i went to my cousin to drop stuff off with jenny, then we walked to jennys and waited for martha to show up. we were going to jennys moms annual halloween party and so jenny dressed up as ms piggy. martha was a can of campbell soup (LOL). i didnt have a costume so after me and jenny fell into a deep sleep nap martha and jenny decided to go with one of danielles old ideas: gum on the bottom of a shoe. so jenny pulled out all the pink she possessed and dressed me up lol.

so we went to the mini club type thing that jennys mom had rented out for the night and there was a whole bunch of her moms friends and stuff. ate. watched a weird compilation of scary movies and scream 3. katie brought us drinks and jenny kept telling me that u wont know how tipsy or drunk ur getting till you are. and knowing me i was like 'yeah ok i dont feel weird at all'. martha didnt drink anything cuz she doesnt like vodka. jenny and i started doing weird little dances. katies friend max or something pulled off jennys pig nose and almost her real nose LOL. i didnt think i had much to drink. jenny said i had a gin and tonic, a bit of a martini, 2 or 3 kamikazes, peach schnapps and sprite, and some other drink that katie brought over. went over to the dance floor. i was ok for a bit and martha and i did weird 80s dances. then i guess the alcohol started to get to me and i started falling over on the floor and on the couch and other people. and i started hugging people. and i could see but was really freakishly woozy. some guy was like 'kiss the skull and itll make u feel better' and i started yelling at him like 'are you stupid? how the hell is the skull supposed to make me feel better?' i called a few people. thank god i didnt call me house. i called my uncles house at like midnight to talk to my cousin and i didnt realize what time it was. jenny said she and people (i think most people were tipsy anyway) started giving me water to drink which i couldnt really drink and i kept trying to get up. and jennys mom yelled for me to stay sitting. so they took me to the bathroom and tried to make me throw up cuz they sed it would make me feel better. jenny said that i was being really annoying cuz i couldnt throw up (but i did alot later). ila took out my contacts for me and jenny said i yelled 'they are open! im asian!' and katie needed to give me a few slaps. i ended up going home with jenny and not marthas.

it was fun while it lasted. the whole being drunk and being weird. but i hate the side effects of it. being tipsy and woozy is fun but then when u start to like fall over and cant really control yourself it started to get on my nerves. i dont like not being in control. egh. this didnt deserve an entire post. maybe itll be deleted later. im glad my mom doesnt know. im a good kid and just cuz u drink a few times doesnt mean your bad. i dont think ill be doing this again any time soon. it was more of an experience because you cant really condemn something youve never done. thats why ive never said im straight edge. i was 'unintentionally straight edge'. im also glad i did it there and not some club passed out on the ground or whatever/

i have to stop doing these silly little 10 phrase updates. ill be back into the groove in a few days lol.

-so. the red sox won their first world series since 1918. cant help temporarily hating the yankees for killing the red sox's losing streak. and to think that they won 4 in a row vs. the yankees and 4 in a row vs. st louis. it sucks.

-halloween is technically today (12:30 AM and im still not done with procrastinating) and i have no idea what to be. im bringing in hats tomorrow. and im wearing a dress! over jeans. dont be silly thinking i might wear it with bare legs. its like blashphemy.

-tomorrow: a halloween party (jennys moms) and QaF 24/7. ahhh. i wanna see what everyone is dressing up as. jenny is being ms piggy and martha is being campbells soup. i think ill be canadian. (?)

-picture with gerard and mikey!

-trent ford is guest starring on smallville and i wanted to die right there. LOST is a great show. props to jj abrams!

-misha: the ditzy giggles ensue.

we'll keep it short:

-i honestly have the best english class anybody could hope for, and i love our little corner. jenny compared me and nej to those old geezers who sit in opera boxes and make loud noises. like muppets. LOL.

-i am failing school im pretty sure.

-after school, and because everyone sucks at life, i went to UNISUN for a bit, then went alone to the roseland to meet up with riana (and her two friends) for pre-nintendo fusion tour (no concert :() and chingy promoting lol. it took a while to find each other because we have bad direction communication skills lol.

-we went to the back of the roseland to see what was there (aka band ppl). saw gerard and squeaked with delight. he had some crazy turquoise stripe across his eyes. he was on his phone and we got kicked out of that area cuz of cars. stayed nearby. mikey showed up (another squeak) too. i got a picture being totaly pimped by the Way brothers. happymaking to the fullest.

me: i saw you guys on that mtv show
gerard: ah! really! awesome! -holds out hand to shake mine-
me: -shakes hand- (thinks of never washing that hand again)
me: can i get a picture?
gerard: yeah!
me: with mikey too?
mikey: yeah!
[get into position. i didnt know where to stand. gerard told me to go between them and thus i was pimped by both in the picture which will come soon]

i dont know why but i was like shaking when i met them. happiness perhaps? anxiety? who knows. luis popped out of nowhere lol. i met up with sharon to get my TBS ticket after unsuccessfully going with riana to see SIMPLE PLAN AT VIRGIN. lolol. def good times. virgin sucks my ass. complications with ticket selling. $50? $60. but the ticket is worth $20. sighs.

i really wish i went to see anberlin, my chemical romance, lostprophets, and story of the year. i swear i saw someone who looked like lee walking on the street. hallucinations i tell you. and i caught a glimpse of some people in the buses. insanityyy.

un day=no school. not feeling like myself. very tired. extremely sore. still need to do alot alot of homework. feeling woozy fell over a few times. oy. and whose brilliant idea was it to have my grandmothers bday dinner in chinatown tonight. bleh. i also need to get my fob am ticket later. i almsot spelled that tiget lol. tomorrow im gonna go to the roseland anyway and see if i can see mcr. i think i need to do streetteaming stuff but i havent gotten stuff yet. me and riana are gonna promote chingy too lmao.

funny livejournal stuff related to the hilarious ashlee simpson thing yesterday. i dont know how i got it but its brilliant.

im working on my history internal assessment and ive been highlighting for an hour. you know if you misspell history you get shitory. thats some quality stuff right there. i got a new jacket today from H&M. i like it alot. i went to irving to get my FOB AM show but irving was closed. fuckers.

did anyone see snl last night with jude law? i was watching 'lost' and 'desperate housewives' (which i had taped) and totally forgot about it :X but the half an hour i saw i laughed until i cried. literally. i couldnt stop laughing cuz jude law fucking rules at life. one of the best things tho about the ep last night was proof that ashlee simpson lip syncs because she cannot in fact sing in real life. so. fucking. funny. and i have it on tape too cuz i had to tape it for martha. she started doing some spasmy dance then the music from the CD or something started and she looked completely shocked and her band was confused and trying to look cool and strum along. the most foul thing tho was at the end shes like 'im sooooorry guys!!! my band messed up! they played the wrong song!!'

...but theyre not the ones singing, are they? *cock eyebrow*

the stupidest rule i have ever heard of is "one show a month". god so fucking stupid. my moms like 'you go to too many shows! if you were a 6+ and above student you could go to as many shows as you want BUT YOURE NOT!!" well fuck you fuckface im going. i wish she was back in chicago. at least with just my dad here i could take care of myself and do whatever i want. and my dad just kept to himself and the only time i saw him was when he would yell to close the blinds or lower the volume on the TV. so fucking stupid.

shows i should be at
-october 26: nintendo fusion tour. aka my chemical romance anberlin soty lostprophets [weekday and my mother sucks at life]
-november 9: HIPV/MBR/The Academy @ Irving [probably not allowed to go. thank you fucker]
-november 26: TBS @ Roseland [going cuz i have a ticket already and its a friday and you cant justify me NOT going]
-december 8: Motion City Soundtrack @ KF [probably not going because my mother said the above quote and shes like 'its a week before exams!!!' so? till be like a pre-exam treat. no. big. deal.]
-december 26: FOBX2 [going to both and i would be even if she said no]

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on another note, i got up at 3 cuz i couldnt sleep last night cuz i was still hyper from running around alphabet city/st marks last night, i was freezing cuz my heat is fucking ghetto, and im so. sore. from hanging on monkey bars upside down and doing retard-gymnast type moves. i neeeed to start work on my history internal assessment and english hw. oh fuck and piano. kjrhoisfboiufasbd.

very good day today. slept in. had english class and mentor. actually mentor was just frustrating because everyone was being stupid. i didnt eat lunch because i felt queasy. remaining classes were pretty shit. i got a bad score on my really easy math test because i changed alot of my answers at the last second cuz i remembered something ms george said but i heard incorrectly. ugh. after school maria and i went over to aishas and hung out. and i saw the old and new MCR videos for 'im not okay' and i love the newer version. it was laughing the whole way thru.

the three of us went to some thai place near st marks (no not spice) and had this really deep convo about how maria and i have fathers from hell. i felt really vulnerable talking about the subject of emotional abuse from our dads but it was good to get the anger out.

went ot the theatre to see 'bright young things' but we were a day late and they didnt show it anymore. so we went to urban outfitters and other random stores at st marks. bumped into christina, katie, and michelle near the continental as we were being weird with sunglasses lol. we were FREAKS and went to FREAKS (cackle cackle i know) to look at shirts and see maria/tima/aishas hot goth boy. who really is hot like nobodys business. and there was a new dude maria thought was gay and he was really nice to tima. such a great place.

we walked to alphabet city and we went to some cafe. we hung out at some park on 9th and avenue A or something. i have blisters on my hands and bruises on my legs plus frostbite from hanging like a monkey on bars and swinging like nobodys business. i had a side stitch so when aisha maria and tima played soccor with a random ball i sat and froze. some cute guy came and asked to play. his name was ISHMAEL and he was a freshman at cooper college or something. he did scupting. he was lovely. :) some grimy dudes cat called aisha. so awkward.

went to another cafe. did nothing. were bums. the end. my mummy is back from chicago and got me a hoodie. i like it muchos.

its almost 1AM friday and i need to finish my homework. but i get to sleep in first two periods so its ok i guess. my head hurts and im freezing. sick of being cold. anyhoo, my moms coming back from chicago tomorrow and im really happy about it. my dads been around but he might as well not be here. ive been doing everything around the house cuz my brother isnt that useful and my dad comes home at like midnight anyway and isnt up till after we leave for school. i dont mind it tho. ill post that scathing email response he wrote about me to my mom tomorrow. so messed up. viva la family drama!

un day was so much fun. math test went pretty good. me and tima were bums and ate the internation food stuff on the 5th floor landing thing in the yellow stairs even though we knew people were looking for us lol. the un day celebrations in the theatre was freakishly fun too. the jazz band did a cover of 'hey ya' and it was brilliant lol. the 'middle eastern reunion' thing made me cry cuz i was laughing so hard. actually a few tears of laughter were shed, like when mr afshinnekoo and mr korulczuk came out in ghetto gear i just couldnt watch. sighs. afterschool i was a good fred and waited with tima and haifa for their cars. such fun today...wow really inarticulate now. and my fingers are fucking frozen.

definantely one of the more shitty days in recent memory.

-still cant find journal one for english.

-100% i failed my physics test even though when i did questions at home i got them right.

-i was cold the entire day.

-i have been sleep deprived for about three weeks in a row.

-we lost to the fucking red sox. 10-3. game 7. why? because the yankees currently suck and cant hit a ball to save their life. a-rod is definantely not living up to his $190 million contract and i despise cairo and that other man whose name i cant remember but hes the 6'8 new first baseman... because they SUCK AT LIFE. WHY DO YOU ALL SUCK?? they badly badly let us down. it was supposed to be a four game sweep. when they lost the fourth game, were like ok the fifth, then. lost that one too. and the red sox won four games in in a row, making them the first team to make such a comeback being down 3 games in a row, and marks the first time theyve been in the world series since 1986. and if they win this world series, itll break the 'curse of babe ruth' and be the first time theyve won the series since 1918. it cant happen. if the red sox win the world series the world will END. its like the freaking apocolypse.
i was probably just PMS-ing hardcore or just not in good shape cuz after the score became 6-0, i couldnt take it and almost burst into tears. it was the saddest thing in my life. and what killed me more was that the yankees didnt seem to be putting any effort. mofos. pissing me off.

ARGH.

THE YANKEES LOST. AGAIN. i cant fucking stand it. after it became tied 4-4 because the yankees kept on fucking striking out i knew it was going downhill from there. and then when ortiz came up in the fucking 14th or 15th inning (i think i was dead by then), i thought that was the end. which it was. back to the bronx tomorrow. win it or die. im not even joking. NONE OF THE YANKEES COULD HIT OR CATCH tonight. i wanted to catch for them or something. bastards. im pisssssed off.

i can't fucking believe the red sox won game 4. it was meant to be a 4 game sweep for the the yankees. mariano rivera fucked up real bad. and i hate ortiz with every bone in my body. it was 4-4 until the 13th inning and then -fuck- ortiz hit the ball and suddenly the score was 4-6, meaning there will be a game 5. and to think we were all so fucking optimistic.

Makupbag [7:55 PM]: mikey=so hot lol
Angrylittleme [7:55 PM]: im smiling like you would never know.

i dont know if ive posted that before. i emailed it to myself cuz i thought it was the amusing thing. if i did... well deal with it.

whoooo the bio lab is almost done! its incredible how happy i am right now. i stalled by cooking and cleaning my room. you know its bad if you resort to THAT. the yankees and red sox have the nerve to have the RED SOX's FINAL GAME THIS SEASON on the same night i have to cram my life away. fuckers.

jenniee1250 (10:43:01 PM): lmao my brother is yelling the game happenings to my mom whose in the bathroom whose yelling back 'yay!' and 'he did?!' etc.

still at odds with my dad. god were both so fucking stubborn and hateful of each other. hes cooking and im hungry. i figure ill just eat after hes done and infected the food with his presence.

on a lighter note, my bio lab might be done in an hour if im good. my unis un article, on the other hand, might have to wait until tomorrow :-/ history researching, physics studying, and english can wait also. god i suck at life. procrastination is not the answer!

the yankees distract me too much. i ended up watching the game instead of doing hw. stupid thing to do. they won 19-8. it was a fucking great game even tho the yankee pitching staff kinda sucked my ass.

um yeah also my mom and i have decided my dad is probably bipolar. one second hell be in a really good mood cracking jokes and whatnot, and the next second he'll be yelling at all of us for stupid reasons. he used to take this painkiller for some reason and it somehow sedated him and i have to say I LOVE MY DAD WHEN HES ON PAINKILLERS because i guess it supresses him and balances out the chemical imbalances in his brain. i wish he still took it. it would make my life so much better and he wouldnt threaten to slap me down when i give him an attitude.

aisha is so clever for making her AOL 'hello!' 'youve got male!' 'goodbye!' into petes voice. now its 'hey this is pete from fall out boy...' 'we get alot of emails...' and 'get off the internet, go outside, and have a good time!'.

...and you know its bad when u realize just now its actually 'youve got mail' and u made a typo. just like in my bio lab i wrote "Brown rats are more destructive; they transmit diseases via fleas on thief backs, ruin food storages, as well as attack other animals including animals."

lol i want to see how many posts ive done today.

i feel like such a loser writing about rats for my lab report lol. i slept 13 hours today. i cant even express how much that is such good stuff; it made up for the severe lack of sleep i had this week, only have maximum 4 hours per night. oy. i looooove my bed. my room is such a mess and strangely enough, the mess is starting to get to my head. like ill start twitching and impulsively pick up paper and stuff them in my trash can then get out a small box and clear my desk. then ill start rearranging my pens and testing them all out. and when i throw them away i get a satisfaction of cleanliness. its like a natural high lol.

as of now, yankees 4, red sox 4. first inning it was yankees 3, red sox 0. bastards.

this weekend will be ruled by the history internal assessment, bio lab, and unis un article. physics test can wait. as can the english journal.

amy is at her homecoming dance. our school sucks sometimes; we dont get to experience things other schools get to. like football spirit days and what not. we get spirit days when we cheer on teachers playing basketball games. i wonder if anyone else remembers the day mr van kirk wore spandex and killed our virgin eyes.

crikeys i just had the most stressful week ever. and its still not over. viva la working weekend!! because of a bio lab, history internal assessment project on pre-WWI Italy, english journal, unis un article on child abuse & neglect, and a physics test to study for, i will be unable to attend the underoath show @ the KF (tooth and nail showcase) and that has killed my mood for the weekend. so unfair. my parents suck majorly.

i think the fact that the weather today was disgusting severly affected everyones mood and drained us all of energy. i checked out my first book from the library in a year or more. its crazy stuff. um. after school, clarisa, jenny, and misha all came over and raided my fridge as we looked for movie times for 'team america'. we got to the theatre and snuck in. the movie was very EH. i fell asleep twice, as did misha. the puppet porno sex scene was hilarious lol. we went to some diner after and i almost threw up my fries from laughing so hard at one point over MISHA VS BOJANGLES. def couldnt take it. jenny misha and i got into some discussion about the in and out of highschool. yeah. i cant be bother to be friends with anyone and there arent enough people to have that much variety. bash.

as for yesterday, me and aisha got to the continental at 7PM to see punchline, the academy, and gym class heroes at the FBR/CMJ showcase. we were freakishly happy to go but then we found out that the show was 18+. fuckerssss. so we hung out with tiggs and these two other girls that were 18+. waited for riana to show, and when she did we ran around and found punchline by their trailer. steve and chris came over and said hi and good stuff. "you guys are in high school?!" tiggs later on : "i thought you were in college!!" us to riana: "i thought you were 18!!" yeah looks can be decieving lol. we saw pj walking around with his gf felicia so we didnt get to talk to him.

it was pretty miserable being in front of the venue, unable to get in because the bouncer was carding people and there were all these ppl smoking their lives away and stuff. i swear i thought i was dying of second hand smoke. there was an everlasting CLOUD over my head and i couldnt take it. it was frustrating too, to listen thru cracks and mope and know that there was little hope of getting in. steve: "to be honest with you guys... i dont think we can get you in" BUT PROPS TO RIANA FOR INSISTING WE WOULD GET IN WHICH WE DID AFTER 4 1/2 HOURS!!

notables: -bob guiney from the bachelor showed up and i got all 'loook its a semi celeb in his 16th minute of fame!'
-steve said that chris carrabba from dashboard confessional was at the saves the day show (same day) and he might/did pop up at the FBR showcase
-steve also said the short one (was it brad.) from LFO was inside the continental lmao.
-i showed paul the picture of steves socalled brother from FUSE and after a bit of convincing he finally saw the resemblence lol. steve, however, was in complete denial. "the nose is off!!"
-bill beckett is fucking tall and fucking skinny but lovely nonetheless
-chris from hidden in plain view showed up
-one of the halifax guys too
-sergio and ace from the early november were around us for hours and i wanted to tell them i loved them but was too intimidated
-i really liked these two bands called daryl and the fags lol
-at one point the venue got so packed around the academy set/gym class that the bouncer was even rejecting ppl on the guestlist.
-i love you amanda for trying to get us in via steve lol and cheering up aisha who was not by any means in good shape>

'miraclously' riana got in with the two girls without checking ID. WHAT?! so aisha and i gave it a try and the bouncer let us thru. i think we were both in shock cuz were like 'arent you checking ids...?' and he was like 'i saw you guys hanging out here for so long and i thought you were just afraid to go in or something..' AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH MOFOS MOFOS MOFOS MOFOS MOFOS!!! but seriously i wanted to hug the bouncer. aisha did. hes a good person.
-got in. punchline did getting there is getting by, a sharp is a flat, just getting started, heart transplant, battlescars, not afraid, a new song about spiders, and i think one more. its time we stick 'play' in there. such good times.
-i had a crush on the academys merch dude and i wanted a punchline hoodie but nightbeast couldnt get to the box in time. my mom gave me hell for ocming back late.

one more day of hardcore homework hell then i can relax... until saturday. when theres more work to be done. i swear it never ends. im not ignoring anyone i just have no time for anythingggggg. except for the yankees and punchline tomorrow to celebrate pre-TGIF.

i feel a nervous breakdown approaching.... from all sorts of stupid and petty things... fuck this shit. god so much spite and scorn and everything else thats a synonymn for that. i hate teenage and high school drama and self induced misery and selfishness and homework.

whose fucking brilliant idea was it to have the first yankees vs red sox game the same night im studying for PSATs?! bastards. well right now its 1-0 yankees so well see who wins game one. ooh remember last year when my love boone hit the winning run that got the yankees into the world series? sighs. idiot for violating his contract argh argh argh.

i shit you not--- i had one of the best nights of my life. and of all places at the MTV studios. more tomorrow. all you need to know right now is
-the guy in front of us in line and behind aisha during MCR's set looked like a younger jason vena and we all had crushes on him
-FELIX RODERIGUEZ FROM THE SOUNDS WAS AN INCH AWAY FROM MY AND SAID "HI!" AS MY JAW DROPPED AND I COULDNT SPEAK AND AS I STARTED GOING "Wh--" TIMA PUSHED ME ON BEFORE GAPING HERSELF AND WHEN I TURNED THE CORNER I JUMPED ON TIMA AND ALMOST BURST INTO TEARS.
>if it were jesper i would have stayed there and talked to those swedish love gods.
-the libertines are one of the happiest bands in my life that make you want to shimmy the night away and do the molly ringwald dance
-chad from NFG cant announce for his life lol
-gerard is a genius. my chemical romance rules my life. they did Helena and I'm Not Okay three times each, Give 'Em Hell Kid, You Know What They Do to Guys Like Us in Prison, and Our Lady of Sorrow.
-gerard sang into my face suckers... after i jumped on tima and yelled the words
-some weird guy behind me had his hand on my shoulder the whole of the last song. maybe he thought i was his friend.
-Me: "we managed to miss you guys five times and im not happy about it at all" ray: "were playing the roseland in two weeks..." me: "argh i dont know if we can go to that" ray: "why?" me: *shrug* "schoolnight...?" ray: (fake sniffle) (turns head) "oh i see how it is..." me: "nooo! no we love you!"
-more tomorrow. gerard, frank, mikey, and the drummer maybe were with their families (said ray) and mikey was with his gf so they didnt come out tho me and aisha stayed till like 11.

here's a lesson that everyone should learn from: never EVER take a benadryl before youre done studying or while you are studying. why? because it will make you drowsy and fall asleep and unable to continue for the next few hours. not a good move. and i still feel woozy. :(

christopher reeve died today.

im scared out of my mind for my IBH bio test.

and i HATE that my bday is in december. loattthhheee.

If there is one person you can't stop thinking about, post this same exact sentence in your journal.

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Makupbag [1:14 AM]: i meant that like
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Angrylittleme [1:17 AM]: that thing you do
Makupbag [1:17 AM]: LOL
Angrylittleme [1:17 AM]: what are YOU IMPLYING?
Makupbag [1:17 AM]: ur little asian eyes.
Makupbag [1:17 AM]: twitching.
Angrylittleme [1:17 AM]: ur babmi doe eyes
Angrylittleme [1:17 AM]: bamibi
Makupbag [1:17 AM]: just the way i like them.
Angrylittleme [1:17 AM]: BAMBI
Angrylittleme [1:17 AM]: lmao
Angrylittleme [1:18 AM]: yes always.
Angrylittleme [1:18 AM]: when my twitch its like a wave
Makupbag [1:18 AM]: i want to buy myself some new colorful exciting socks
Angrylittleme [1:19 AM]: red ones??
Angrylittleme [1:19 AM]: or ones wiht spots.
Makupbag [1:19 AM]: lets not overdo this.
Angrylittleme [1:19 AM]: youre only jealous cuz i have them
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its now 2PM and ill prolly be doing hw till midnight and then tomorrow from 10-6pm (when i leave for the MTV thing) (which produced drama). yeah. should def be good times. i saw this hot mofo with a black haired fauxhawk around st. marks and i wanted to shoot myself it was so great. le sigh.

things to do:
-study for bio test (got pushed back)
-study for chinese test
-uh somehow study for PSATs
-do Journal One for the 'age of innocence'
-physics lab
-MY FUCKING UNISUN ARTICLE WHICH I JUST REMEMBERED NOW. fuck.

the yankees beat the twins 6-5 in the 11th inning and i swear i was about to shit in my pants i was so nervous minnesota would score before them. but they won so now this is going to happen. hot shiiit.

im really nervous about the mass amounts of hw i have but im also really really excited for the my chemical romance thing. its sick. they called my cell this morning and at first i thought the guy was asking for jenny w. (dont ask, i was really out of it) then a *click* went off in my head and i realized he was asking for me. lmao it was bad.

i dont feel that great right now :-/

im so groggy right now its incredible. i dont even know how i managed to get home lol. but im not like this cuz im hung over or what not like most poeple, im like this cuz im badly sleep deprived cuz i was up for 24+ hours, and 7 or so of those was spent watching queer as folk lol. i hate how all the good ones are gay. it kills me.

i would so watch TV and sleep and eat the whole 3day weekend but i cant because i have a shitload of homework and two tests to study for. woot woot! and also on monday im GOING TO MTV TO SEE MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE on some fruitcake show called DOWNLOAD AND DISCOVER. a strange situation i know. MTV of all places. blehh. i think im just spiteful cuz MTV corrupts everything and ive never seen MCR live before because of stupid reasons. either way im fucking excited.

Thursday October 14th will be a good good day if everything works out. 1) http://www.absolutepunk.net/showthread.php?t=49012. 2) CMJ Showcase, suckasss.

i also finally saw garden state yesterday and it made me so fucking happy i wanted to cry. i love zach braff. even more so than on scrubs. sighs.

i want to cry cuz i just found out that one of the opening bands of the killers show im missing/missed is/was THE AMBULANCE LTD. who i love. theyre from nyc too so they should be doing more dates hopefully...

"Tonight and tommorow night the Nintendo Fusion Tour featuring Lostprophets, Story of the Year, and My Chemical Romance meets up with Taking Back Sunday, Matchbook Romance, and Fall Out Boy at The Premier in Seattle. The show starts a 5 p.m. both nights."

scorn+spite for seattle.

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"Due to some circumstances that i really had no part of, I will not be on the Taking Back Sunday tour.

It is upsetting, sad, and frustrating to know that your best friends cannot take you along with them unlike most of the past two years. I will miss my friends as well as my job. Hopefully I will be back following this tour, but i do not know if that in my hands.

For the friends i was looking forward to seeing but cannot, i guess things will have to wait even longer."

maybe hell come on the December tour, you never know :-/

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school is really draining me and i feel like im floating in the halls. haifa told me i didnt move my shoulders when i walked. ok. aisha and i told her she was shallow in the library and it erupted into something dumb and (un)needed. 'BELT! BELT!' 'i dont like his shoes' 'she likes the band on ur shirt'

we had a LOCKDOWN drill during history and it was brilliant cuz it was ghetto as ass and i swear we would all die instantly if there was some attack. we just sat in a choatic line in the gym and made jokes about having radioactive material proof blankets: "in the even of a lockdown we will provide food and blankets". lol id like to see that happen. and radha had her damn loudspeaker which nobody could hear. i had fun in TOK.

people are stupid. im tired. my eyes are half closed= shut to the naked eye. ZZZZZ. garden state tomorrow. im excited. ur supposed to see it with somebody you love/it will make you fall in love. well see about that.

comeback #62 suckasss. yankees beat the minnesota twins 6-7 in the 12th inning because they RULE AT LIFE.

"So tonight, Pete (Fall Out Boy) and I hit up the mall in Denver. We head into the Vans store when the kid working there asked us what we were doing. So, we tell him we're going to see Taking Back Sunday and stuff, and the kid gets all excited. He starts telling us how much he likes TBS, but the reason he didn't go was because he "fuckin hates Fall Out Boy." He has no idea the bass player of the band is standing right in front of him. So, I go on saying how much I hate the band too (obviously going along with it), and so does Pete. The kid then asks Pete if plays in a band, and he said "yes, I play in a death-metal band." It was a classic moment and we left the kid believing what he thought was true. By the way, the new FOB demos sound so good!"

le sighs

i dissected a pregnant white rat today in bio. it was not pleasant and ruined any appetite i had the rest of the day. no breakfast/lunch for me! and dinner was force-fed by my mother was thinks im being anorexic. i didnt do any cutting cuz i couldnt bring myself to do it, so rahat jenny and sarah e did it. i just held fetuses and rinsed a few off. we named our fetuses lol. gustave bartholemew j.dutti minkus... it was good stuff. rahat was being weird and taping the dissected rat for some sick reason. abiys table gave its rat a faceOFF and skinned it. everyone cept us ended up giving their rats lobotomys. that was funny but other than that the smell of phemaldahyde made me want to kill myself.

i was ok for most of the dissection but after i saw the trash can with butchered mice and the reek of chemical and corpse i started to cough and gag. it was pretty bad.

uh rest of the day was ok. english was wildly amusing cuz of nej and bens presentations on the scarlet letter. so funny. i need to stop procrastinating and do my fucking scarlet letter essay. bleh. i love how much this post is all about rats.

81 days suckas.

ps. the CMJ SHOWCASE shit is 18+. well see about that.

my mother is a twitching spazz.

on another note, i love john edwards and was betting on cheney having a heart attack in the middle of the debate. cheney was terrrrrrible.

i hate being sick. it makes you moody (moodier) than usually and cloud ur thoughts. and makes u weird lol. and makes me even more of a hypochondriac than ever.

gym: im incompetant in volleyball because i have no reflexes. its great but its also annoying cuz we one have one period and u cant get into the mood of it in one period.

before math this drama involving maria, necla, livejournal, and me happened and it wasnt pretty; it led to maria making hers friends only. i was really paranoid about the situation until english but it get significantly better on my part but not so much the other.

uh. what else. misha and i had fun talking to izzi in the library about hilary duff. then we retreated to the bathroom of all places to talk about the drama briefly. god thats such an emo girl thing to do.

i had unis-un afterschool and by the end my eyes wanted to pop out of my head from all the visiting schools stuff i had to do. eehhh. sleep is my friend. insomnia is not.

i need to go to another show really badly. i missed the academy and the plain white t's and was mopey about it. im a sore loser. im also missing the nintendo fusion tour and if sascha doesnt come thru im not seeing TBS either. the used show, i have no idea if im going. alot of it depends on if the friends are going.

homesick hearts (11:00:13 PM): omg bill from the academy was hitting on me all night
jenniee1250 (11:00:20 PM): lol tell me about it
homesick hearts (11:00:30 PM): i will later im talking to nel
jenniee1250 (11:00:36 PM): haha ok
jenniee1250 (11:00:42 PM): this should be good

i love it. its very me.

taking a break from slacking to procrastinate a bit. i fell asleep after i got back from CAP for two hours. it was a nice nap but i really crashed. and my mother is being a fucking cuntface. jengotosleep jenstopgoingonline jendoyourchores. yeah fuck you tell my dad that he doesnt do shit anyway. this week is a killer.

daily TBS MBR FOB update.

im a loser, i would SO go if i didnt have a shitload of hw and unisun.

and lets make my life a bit more miserable and be a loser and mope for not living in jersey. who would think id ever admit that?

lol the remainder of us in CAP ended up doing FLAME for a few of us. it was good times. its nice to rant out the spite.

homesick hearts (10:21:55 PM): are you busy tomorrow?
jenniee1250 (10:21:59 PM): yeah
jenniee1250 (10:22:01 PM): why?
homesick hearts (10:22:12 PM): i have an extra ticket to see the academy
jenniee1250 (10:22:36 PM): what.
jenniee1250 (10:22:41 PM): theyre playing tomorrow??
homesick hearts (10:22:47 PM): yes at the knitting factory
jenniee1250 (10:23:09 PM): i didnt know that
jenniee1250 (10:23:12 PM): with who?
homesick hearts (10:23:23 PM): um lucky boys confusion
jenniee1250 (10:23:29 PM): blfksdb damn this
homesick hearts (10:23:30 PM): the akas i think
jenniee1250 (10:23:36 PM): figures
homesick hearts (10:23:39 PM): wait
homesick hearts (10:23:40 PM): its
jenniee1250 (10:23:50 PM): i have so much fing hw and tests to study for and its killing me
homesick hearts (10:23:56 PM): lucky boys confusion, the matches, plain white t's and the academy
jenniee1250 (10:24:13 PM): FUCK
jenniee1250 (10:24:19 PM): i keep on missing the plain white t's!

i really do. in august or something i missed them by one day.

my dad put me on AOL Guardian again so he can see every single thing i do online cuz hes a fucking shit. this should be interesting. all i do is basically LJ and blog and go to random band websites so it shouldnt be all that interesting but i have this thing against this breach of privacy. i convinced my mom to get the bastard to take it off last time but i guess he got annoyed i happen to be on whenever hes online. fucker.

Dear Member,

RICHARDKENG has asked to receive the AOL Guardian e-mail with a summary of your online activities. The AOL Guardian e-mail your parent receives will include:

* The time you signed on to AOL and how long you spent online
* The Web sites you visited
* The Web sites you tried to visit even if the Web site was blocked
* Your IM and Buddy List activity
* Your e-mail and Address Book activity

When you sign on to AOL, you will see an indicator that lets you know the AOL Guardian is active for your screen name.

Sincerely,

AOL Member Services Team

i like how its like cyber stalking for parents. and AOL makes it seem like its just something casual knowing every move you make. so if my dad reads this i just hope they know he sucks and i cant wait to move away from his selfish and bipolar self.

i .am. so. fucking. cold. and its only october. what happened to my damn resistance to sickness and cold? im wearing ski socks, sweatpants, a tshirt, a hoodie, and im seriously considering putting on gloves and a scarf or something. my parents always open my window at night for some twisted sadistic reason so i get up shivering and unable to move. and now my head is throbbing. and im sore and have 1 english essay, one newspaper article, bio studying, chinese essay to do. fuck meee. hypochondriac moment i know.

i was too tired to put in my contacts and i think my glasses inhibit my ability to differentiate. i thought andrew from soco was at mcdonalds and a jason vena look alike was on the bus. maybe its a side affect of 'concert withdrawal' lol. im suposed to be at the FFTL show today.

i just spent almost 2 hours ordering 3 late bday presents online and my eyes are about to POP out of my head.

i just got another letter from punchline chris thanking me for being on the streetteam lol. he tried to draw lungs and then sed they looked like kidney beans. got my second basketball card and stick. it made me happy :)

soo today was haifas bday party thing. on the way to her house, at the bus stop, this woman shoved a pamphlet into my hand and discouraged me from getting a hysterectomy because it could hurt me.

thanks man, ill take that into consideration.

i was the first one there and hanky saw my present and i ate chips and salsa cuz i love it. maria came with aisha and necla. necla seemed exhausted probably from the clubbing last night, and wasnt talking very much and bringing down the mood a bit cuz we were all kind of concerned about her (...). anwar and nora came and we met tima downstairs. the elevator closed on me and maria saved me from almost certain death by pulling me in with her and nej.

we took a limo to see RENT on broadway. i liked the second act alot better and mimis dying scene was complete & utter shit. like high school drama plays. jk. i recognized the song we sang at the end of M2 for out 'immigrant' plays lol and i got all nostaligic. one of the ppl was a SPAZZ. "everybody! mooooo with meee!!!" oh and did i mention drew lachey formerly of 98 degrees was in it. hes a midget with a big voice indeed.

took the limo back and hung out at haifas. had cake and junk food. then somehow we went from listening (and in some cases dancing and me and tima doing twin discoage) to arabic dance music to 90s pop music which fucking RULED. i didnt dance cuz i was at a disadvantage in the hips department. damn you arabs and your voluptuous hips and bums lmao. and because i was tired if you know what i mean. we listened to BSB, 98 degrees, britney spears, mandy moore, blue, STEP, 5IVE, and a bunch of others. i left before the spice girls cuz i had to go to my dads boring as fuck birthday dinner.

why is it that whenever im in a shit mood my dads always in the best mood. it kills me.

i havent done one piece of HW and i feel bad. well thats what sundays are for right? im so motherfucking tired. egh.

just looked at my Used pictures again, and i realized Quinn was wearing FLANNEL.

you know how i feel about FLANNEL.

i want to JUMP on him.

oh boyee.

soo school was boring. as usual. history wasnt that bad. im a historys mysteries nerd, i admit it. nothing else happened. really man school is shit. i called FUSE and sed that they were fully booked. hrm. after school aisha and i ran to her house and got $, then went with tima to FUSE to see the used.

we got there around 4:30 and basically did nothing for an hour and a half. ppl who had reservations didnt even get in because some school from long island had booked the entire thing. the kids who came looked like they popped out of a GAP/Pacsun catalogue. i swear half the girls were half dressed. oy. we were all really spiteful towards them cuz they sucked. then the used showed up and bert passed and waved a bert from sesame street doll at us. then brandon, jeph, and quinn came and tiggs started having like heart palpatations lol. "i swear i love quinn allman more than i love fall out boy"- tiggs. i told her to take that back. so we watched thru the window as they did a pre show practice and aisha and ppl made signs like 'bert your real fans are outside!!'. i guess josh got annoyed and stressed (lol and those fucking sunglasses made him cocky) cuz of us so he came out and like yelled at us. aisha tima and i were right in front of him and it wasnt good. a bit later he came out to redeem himself in our eyes but i dont think any of us respect him half as much as we used to. i know its stressful but you dont have to be an ass about it.

riana came earlier and she had these things from capitol records to promote CHINGY. lolol. i hate that man. he should learn how to spell and make good music. anyhow. they were these scratch and sniff if you want to cards and we spent the entire waiting time passing them out to people who were wearing ecko and rocawear lol. it was good times. this one guy was like 'chingys my cousin!' and i was like yeah ok cool support your cousin and give these to ur friends kthx and gave him like 10 of them. thanks to the cards riana and i learned the lingo. and we all leaned back to brush some dirt off our shoulders then holler back. lol. low point was feeling like hobos sitting on the ground putting together chingy promo stuff.

we watched the used do some new song and 'take it away' from the outside and we made up this massive crowd next to the window. it was awesome. cept the mosh pit idea courtesy of tima and aisha didnt work out lol. bert kept interacting with us outside thru the window. at the end of the set (which i apparently missed), brandon threw himself onto the drum set or something and was like lying on the ground as bert jeph and quinn comforted him. aww.

bert came out for a smoke after and so alot of ppl including us got pix with him. lol he almost smoked my sharpie cuz it was in the same hand as his cigarette. tima got a hug and afterwards had a little breakdown cuz she was so mother happy. these things are unhealthy for her (cough lps) lol. i tried to dry her tears with a napkin but instead i poked her eye lol. riana and i went to ther corner so that we could see both exits, but then aisha called me and we saw that jeph had come out. so pictures with jeph ("can u sign the back of this shingy card?" "ohh chingy...nice") and he was lovely. tima and aisha got pix too.. and it was like this wild frenzy of 20 crazy kids swarming. their guitar tech randomly gave tima a pick. quinn came out and between his exit and their manager man urging into the car to catch a plane, he signed autographs and i got a picture with him even tho he was being badly rushed. it was nice. i asked jeph where brandon was and he sed that he probably left already on their other bus cuz they have two. argh.

we left a bit after, but not after getting a picture of this guy who looked EXACTLY LIKE PUNCHLINE STEVE (but taller, had more hair, and braces). it was uncanny how he couldve been his brother. lmao i said loudly to riana 'you only want a picture with him cuz you think hes cute!' as we walked thru them, then we turned around and this girl was snickering about us to the guy. we asked to take his pic cuz he looked like steve and he was like 'yeah cool ok!' *snap* tima yelled 'BYE STEVE!' and it was great.

left and went to a thai restaurant. then veniros to get my dad a cake for his bday. paid for some of it with change lol. this drunk guy who looked like a goth jared from the subway sandwich commercials was staggering on the street and when i passed he staggered into me and i screamed bloody hell and ran off. it was FUCKING SCARY. god. and i walked behind these ditzy groupieish urban outfitterized group of girls in high pitched drama queen voices. 'OMG LAUREN DID YOU SEE BRANDON???' shut up mannnn.

les pictures: http://community.webshots.com/album/194575744FwAfWd

damn this to hell.

1) my mother is a fucking bitch.
2) my dad is an asswipe
3) my brother is a pussy

how the hell did i get so lucky?

blogger and my computer both shut down in the middle of my kerry/bush debate rant so ill do it again. after watching it i wanted to kill bush and hug kerry. bush is a fucking idiot. i dont understand how people continue to support him and believe he is the answer to all our problems. and i was amazed at all the lies that just spilled out of his mouth one after another. you fucking liar. and hes an inarticute country bumpkin who would be far more effective on his ranch in texass. kerry on the other hand did a good job in my opinion. thank god he pointed out all those flaws about bush and making a point to say that he lied and misled the public based on false information. i loved it. bush says um or uh after every other word lol.

kill the drama.

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