kill the drama.: 05/01/2004

Monday, May 31, 2004

so this black bastard jordan: http://www.livejournal.com/users/falloutmerchboy has stolen my idea of robbing 14 year olds of cookies. i want an ipod too. steal your friends for me and ill get you free shit, kisses from random hot dudes in even hotter bands and ill make pete call you on your phone*, yes i know how ridiculous this sounds but for a free ipod you dont know how low i will stoop.

aisha, heychris is awesome.

"Monday--May 31, 2004

Happy birthday to andy hurley. I'd like to persoonally thank all those involved in the sex that brought little andy hurley into my life.
If you were bringing me a present on saturday give it to andy instead.

Yeah boyee. Ready for tour?

posted by: tbok at 3:52 pm"

yay!

procrastinating. again.

things to do:
-english essay (this should be fun)
-STUDY for 92387492 exams
-finish reading the fucking Da Vinci Code

i suggest everyone get a livejournal. why? cuz its brilliant.

Sunday, May 30, 2004

i was bored/procrastinating...

anberlin 1
anberlin 2
anberlin 3

nate-the-16-year-old-child-prodigy-drummer, as we refer to him, is on the right. -drools- deon the bassist (lol amy and aisha) is the other blond one.

"a decade under the influence"
i love the new taking back sunday song.
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i dont want to go back to school. i dont want to take exams. i dont want to spend a week cramming. i hate complaining but i cant help it.
>"ive got a bad feeling about this."

Saturday, May 29, 2004

jason vena. pictures from last night. sexxxxx. but alas! the hair! his hair is gone! -dies- WHERE IS HIS HAIR!? hes not bald...but his 'jason hair' is gone. oh dear..

[edit]

1. jason exposed

2. he's too good looking for his own good.

[Body]
1. What do you most like about your body? possibly eyes. theyre nice i think...behind my huge glasses. getting contacts this summer.
2. And least? this is funny.
3. How many fillings do you have? i think i have like one
4. Do you think you're good looking? No.
5. Do other people often tell you that you're good-looking? every now and then lol. randomly.

[ Fashion ]
1. Do you wear a watch? religiously.
2. How many coats and jackets do you own? dont care..alot.
3. Favorite pants/skirt color? lol old navy
4. Most expensive items of clothing? shoes and these pants i liked 3 years ago..but now theyre just tacky. maybe if i keep it a little longer itll be in again?
5. What kind of shoes do you wear? converse, flipflops, and reeboks. no, not those ugly fully black ones..
6. Describe your style in one word: Dunno

[ Your Friends ]
1. Do your friends 'know' you? Perhaps.
2. What do they tend to be like? awesome.
3. Are their traits universally liked? I guess.
4. How many people do you tell everything to? no body. they hear part of it, but never ever the entire thing. so ME.

[ Music/TV/Film/Books ]
2. Most listened to bands/artists: Fall Out Boy, something corporate, punchline, etc. etc.
3. Do you find any musicians good-looking? too many. jesper. pete. spencer. paul. andrew. and i could go on forever.
4. Can you play an instrument? i can 'play' the piano
5. Type of music most listened to? rock genre. and oldies. OH YES the oldies.
6. Type never listened to? Hip-hop/rap. i cant handle it. i like polka better than that.

[ Clothing/Hair ]
1. Do you own any plaid clothing? no...but i like flannel on guys tho. lololol! no, seriously.
2. Do you own Converse shoes? one pair.
3. Do you own Saucony shoes? No but i used to want them
4. Do you own old school Nikes? ehh no
5. Do you wear tight pants? all my pants are a little bit tight but not to the extent it makes my fat OOZE out of the top of my pants.
6. Is there more than one zipper in your pants? no
8. Do you own a messenger bag? no, actually..
9. Do you wear your messenger bag across your chest? yes
10. Do you own braces? own? no. but i used to have them.
15. Do you think mohawks are "neat"? Fauxhawks are "neater than neat." [oh my god AMEN JENN]
18. Do you own a bandana? god forbid i do
19. Do you wear plugs in your ears? No...i personnally dont like plugs that much. i dont like the idea of stretching ur earlobes to the extent that theyre huge holes u can see thru.
21. Have you ever used duct tape as a sewing substitute? im so lazy that yes, i have
22. Do you own one or more objects with studs or spikes in them? belt...and like one bracelet

[ Habits/Beliefs ]
31. Do you smoke cigarettes? no
32. Do you smoke cloves?: lol who the hell does that
36. Do your night time activites usually involve drunken underage vomiting? always. it wouldnt be fun otherwise.
38. Do you wash your hair less than once a week? ew no
39. Have you ever gone a week without a shower? yes...-runs and hides-
41. Do you know who Jack Kerouac is? some great american writer...and theres a song named after him
42. Do you like Mr. Kerouac? bien sur!
44. Are you a member of the Makeout Club? lol huh
45. Do you say "rad"? every now and then
46. Do you say "rockin'"? no
47. Do you say punk "rawk"? im boring so i dont. lots of other ppl do, tho.
48. Do you shout the word "oi"? lol yes
49. Do you say "punk's not dead"? i dont get into discussions in which i might ahve to
50. Do you say "punk is dead"? No.

[Music]
53. Do you like bands with "the"? dont care
54. Do you ever precede your own name with "the" at the beginning? "the Jim meister" "the Jen" yes i do.
57. Are Blink 182 fans posers? uh i dont know.
58. Do you have frequent debates over what exactly constitutes a sellout? no
59. Have you ever brought the headlining band food? i should.
60. Do you have show flyers affixed to your walls? lol yes...like a flyer for the sounds i ripped off a mailbox and whoever i was with yelled at me for my patheticness

[Basics]
Name: Jen
Do you like it? yes
Nicknames: Jennifer, Jennie, jen jen, jim, jimmy jam, J
Age: 15
Birthday: december 16
Sign: sagitarrius
School: unis
Status: single like [insert chromosome joke...lol haifa my bio dork]
Current hair color: Black.
Eye color: brown.
Height: 5'4" 1/2 lol
Shoe size: 8/9

[Favorites]
Color: black
Sport: baseball, figure skating, and speed skating wen they all crash into each other
Class: don't have one

[Which?]
Coke/pepsi: coke
Day/night: either
Aol/aim: AIM...and AOL wen its not being a fucker
Cd/cassette: CD
Dvd/vhs: both
Jeans/khakis: Jeans
Tall/short: in between
Gap/Old Navy: both
Lipstick/Lipgloss: LIPGLOSS
Silver/Gold: both

[<3]
Do you have a bf/gf? No.
Do you have a crush? its fading, but yes
How long have you liked him/her? ooh a while. right, amy?
How long was your longest relationship? mmm.
How long was your shortest relationship? mmm.
Who was your first love? i dont know. mom.

[The Present]
What are you wearing? checkered short shorts, old green chinatown marathon shirt
Where are you? my room
Who are you with? lol i actually looked around for a sec. myself.
Are you online? AM I?!

[Have you ever...]
Drank? Yessir.
Smoked? no
Had sex? No.
Stolen? Yes.
Done anything illegal? yes
Wanted to die? Mhmm.
Hit someone? yes

[Other]
Do you write in cursive or print? its retarded...cursive print
Are you a lefty or a righty? righty.
What is your sexual preference? straight
What piercings do you have? none
Do you drive? no but i badly need to learn how to
Tattoos? Someday.

A - Act your age - 15
B - Breast size - i dont know
C - Chore you hate - dishes
D - Dad's name - richard
E - Essential make up item - eye liner like nobodys business
F - Favorite singer - patrick/andrew
G - Gold or silver - Silver!
H - Hometown - NYC
I - Instruments you play - piano, used to play cello, songflute, recorder...skills, man, skills
J - Job title - none.
K - Kids - none...
L - Living arrangements - parents.
M - Mom's name - Grace
N - Number of people you've fallen in love with - 0.
O - Overnight hospital stays - noen since birth
P - Phobia - ANYTHING THAT CRAWLS ON WALLS be it an insect or character in a movie. i freak. completely. and things that fly at me. pigeons. sad, cuz i like in the pigeon capital of the world. how the hell'd they get here anyway?
Q - Quote you like - any pete wentz quote ever.
R - Religious affiliation - Agnostic.
S - Siblings - nicholas
T - Time you wake up - 7:30/8 AM
U - Underwear of choice - low rise. die granny pantys.
V - Vegetable you refuse to eat - squash. hankie: squash the squashes!!
W - Worst habit- procrastinating and biting the inside of my lip until it bleeds a lot.
X - X-rays you've had - whole bunch
Y - Yummy food you make - hot pockets. i can make them like nobodys business i swear
Z - Zodiac Sign - sagitarrius you senile dumbass.

Next month we'll be rockin' oot in CANADA! May 03, 2004
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I threw up the tentative dates (6/3 - 6/20), but it's still being finalized. I'll repost with the other bands, and info when it's in...
Be grateful I didn't push it and throw an "ay" in here somewhere...

-allisters website. funny funny.
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im really really happy right now, and for no reason.

i got 4 1/2 hours of community service done today working on the mural at the stuy cove park with misha, jenny, and other ppl. its the ugliest mural in the world, but whatever it was fun hanging out there. a few of us painted on one of the mini boulders (all i painted was a heart) and randy (art teacher, not other randy) flipped and threatened us with zero hours of community service if we didnt wash it off, so misha and i went to gristedes and got cleaning stuff. misha, randy, rahat, jenny, and i were washing off the rock when someone noted it was like racial discrimination against minorities or boot camp. it was hilarious cuz it was true. left early, and went to eat with jenny and misha at some little chinese restaurant near loews that ive never seen before. our waiter was a little strange. good times laughing our asses off at everything.

i hate missing TV shows i promise myself i will watch. bahh.

and im still really jittery over my music seminar cheating thing. i guess the worst that could ahppen is i get a zero on it. :(

my stomach is still hurting from the pizza party we had in mentor. i feel like im about to puke. not fun. the stupid yearbook/community service bitch wouldnt let me have my year book cuz i didnt have enough outside hours of community service. WELL FUCK YOU YOU STUPID WHORE. >.<
watched othello in english. sat in band practice with tima, haifa, and aisha. fun stuff. softball during gym. I CAUGHT A BALL. i rock. so badly. so lenis wasnt here today, and instead we had a crazy sub. i swear she was neurotic and out of her mind. she was like having spasms ans running around threatening us with detention slips. i sat in the lounge with david and haifa for a bit towards the end.

jenny, martha, and i were supposed to go to marthas to sleepover and watch movies. didnt work out tho, cuz jenny and i were DEAD TIRED, the weather was shit, and we were both panicking about our community service credits. so we lazed around at my house, watching tv and getting fat on ice cream. phone calls with martha ensued, set up a rought outline of a plan. jenny and i were hyperactive and messing around with song lyrics. and fcking mindsweeper.

then the stomachache came back and i thought my abdomen was going to explode. so i ddint go, and marf and jenny rented movies and stuff. i wanted to see day after tomorrow...but alas no. instead, i watched 2 1/2 movies on tv in a row. i watched half of the princess bride (best movie ever), here on earth (whcih i almost died during; it was HORRIBLE. DEAR GOD it really really was), and the virgin suicides, which i loved. and who i love even more: josh hartnett. he made my day. :)

Thursday, May 27, 2004

Makupbag [10:53 PM]: in one she was like im going to sign my jounal liek pete. and she signed it "a"
Angrylittleme [10:54 PM]: LOL
Angrylittleme [10:54 PM]: lol wat if u did that
Angrylittleme [10:54 PM]: a
Makupbag [10:54 PM]: she shud get out
Makupbag [10:54 PM]: lol
Makupbag [10:54 PM]: aishapan
Makupbag [10:54 PM]: aisha rabbit
Angrylittleme [10:54 PM]: LOLOLOLOL
Makupbag [10:54 PM]: aishie
Makupbag [10:54 PM]: aisha pumpkin eater
Angrylittleme [10:54 PM]: jennie pumpkin eater
Angrylittleme [10:54 PM]: jennie
Angrylittleme [10:54 PM]: ah well thats not fun
Angrylittleme [10:54 PM]: j
Makupbag [10:55 PM]: lololol

my computer froze in the middle of my post. bah. so sleeping @ midnight is bad for me because i get drowsy for the ENTIRE day. 1-1:30 AM works far better for me. so boring classes up till lunch. went to the roof to study with misha and michelle for music seminar in the middle of a hand ball game. not fun, man. u felt like my back was on fire and my eyes were dying from staring at the white pages under the glaring sun. we ended up writing some notes on our arms (cept for misha who wrote like the entire book on her arm), and going to take the music seminar test. misha forgot she had it on her arm, and pulled up her sleeves just as mr nicholson came by to give her her test. he caught her, and made everyone else roll up their sleeves. OHH SHITT was the only thing going thru my head. he sent misha, michelle, and i to the bathroom to wash it off then took down our names. shiiiiit.

half fell asleep in all my other classes. bleh. went with haifa and maria to marias and watched the fall out boy dvd cuz were cool like that. i dunno. maria was telling me about her $100+ seven jeans. im fine having >$50 old navy jeans. THEYRE THE SAME THING dammit.

grandma and grandpa came over. i love them so much. my grandma saw how i was about to flal over and made me take a nap....that lasted 3 1/2 hours. eeehhh.

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

August 18, 2004 Darien Lakes PAC, Buffalo, NY WARPED TOUR

ive decided i have to make SOME attempt to go to that show. Hidden In Plain View AND Fall Out Boy are playing that date. MUST. GO. raaa...

i was downloading 'i wanna be a kennedy' by kill hannah and my dad kicked me off via his office...at 92%. goddamnit. i want to know whose reading my blogger. the only family who im willing to let read is AMY cuz AMY is awesome. everyone else, fuck off. yeah.

othello competition today. goood stuff. i loved jenny's group, jon and john's, maggie and emma's, and kinda the last two. it was slapstick humor but who doesnt love that. overall, i think everyone did a really good job with their othello skits. i remember dying of laughter during john snd jons hilary and bill clinton - othello parody...hmm. as for the final results (the golden artichoke awards), i think the award topics were a little off. and i wanted to SMACK the woman in the green shirt. i dont know what the fuck she was trying to do (act? be funny?), btu she kept like dropping her papar and shaking it and had on and off dyslexia. it pissed everyone off.

chem>math. died of boredom. i was half dead by chinese ... i couldnt concentrate cuz i was so exhausted from my retarded sleep patterns. gotta get more sleep. but that wouldnt make a difference cuz im a nocturnal insomniac. bleeh. home. goofed off. this is the life now isnt it.

why we love SoCo andrew (and pictures)...[click]

THREE WEEKS till fall out boy @ the KF.
THREE WEEKS and TWO DAYS till fall out boy in jersey.

Tuesday, May 25, 2004

AISHA CAN COME WITH ME TO THE JERSEY FALL OUT BOY SHOW! her parents decided that they would drive her once they saw how much it meant to her. i honestly thought they were drunk when they told her or something..but thats besides the point. the only downside: she's going to get there 15 minutes before doors open. doesnt matter, shes coming shes coming!!

it is neccessary that i get the blindside CD within the next week. its annoying to download mp3s of all the songs. speaking of which, geoff-jesper [insert tima: "SEEXXXX"] and co. are in town. weddings outside of the venue arent permitted. sighs.

i had a fat ass moment a few minutes ago. i ate 2 pieces of fried chicken (which was really really good btw) and then sat on my couch and fell asleep. i kinda just fell over and snoozed. oh now fucked up my biological clock is. im a nocturnal ADD-plagued insomniac.

i cant understand shit with lenis. but thanks to afshinnekoo i learned most of the organic chemistry stuff we need to know. IT MAKES SENSE. ahh! something new. blah blah hung out outside during lunch and my triple free. some of the T1s are cool...the others...are just shitheads that need to get over themselves really badly. bio. math. i had a really boring day lol. and im still stalling with my french oral which, according to me and noras calculations, ill have to do tomorrow. unless im lucky and ghoussoub falls down a flight of stairs. i kid, but only halfly. called danielle.

its a conspiracy: winmx wont let me download 'soco amaretto lime' by brand new. bleh.

still trying to figure out a way to get aisha to jersey with me.

Monday, May 24, 2004

this whole aisha-tima-jen FOB show in jersey deal is getting complicated. had all this phone drama tonight. i know that i'm going for sure, but the thing is how will aisha get there (tima backed out)? car service seems our best bet. ehh.

im having a fat ass moment and want a cupcake like the ones necla gave me and haifa during bio. :P

"5/23/2004 - 10:55 AM EST
Status report: played at some schools definitely a very different experience. Got to meet a lot of new kids. Highlight: kindergardeners ask way better questions than any interview. Instore: just wanted to give kids around us a free show. I think it worked out okay. HFS: 11 hour drive ends up taking 16 or 17 hours. No sleep. Definitely over 90 degrees. The set was a blast. Lots more kids sang with us than we expected. Namedrop: got to hang with tbs, new found, stars hide fire, and hazen st. - the bands were amazing. I think jayz definitely had everyone beat though. He is the biggest thing on the fucking planet. Slept at the hotel. Back home to work on some demos. Total fan moment: Saw robert smith in the elevator.

I could definitely die happy today. I am only writing this so you can read that you are my favorite person on the planet. - petey"

math test. more or less free choice in the lab during french. another humourous lesson making fun of hitler with jenny. BORING FREE AND LUNCH. gym was boring too. we watched another one of those hilarious movies in chem with roald hoffman. dr. k wasnt in during bio so we had mr. long. jojo, george, tim, haifa, necla, and i played text twist for half an hour straight. its honestly the most addicting and frustrating game on earth cuz half the time, the words u need to make ARENT REAL. bastards...

after school, aisha and i went to her house and watched the FOB dvd twice and died laughing from most of it. it was sad. but highly amusing. three weeks till fob. im seeing them twice in three days. craziness. we had mcdonalds, and afterwards i felt SO SICK. i felt like i had a beer belly without the beer. it was horrible. looks like someone wont be eating anytime soon.

its funny how we idolize pete...>

--Monday, May 24, 2004--I'd say i was sorry if you'd be willing to believe one more lie

Hfs was amazing. Good hangouts. My cellphone wouldn't work in the crowd so the love was off for the day. I'm sorry darlings. Stood next to robert smith - it felt good to remember how it is to be a shakey suttering fan. I'm saying all the wrong things at all the wrong times. I thought it would make me feel better but it makes me feel so much sicker in my stomach. I had to cut my hair it was hot and stupid looking. It will be back by tour - it grows fast and I will do something new with it.

You damaged me way back when it mattered when I was just a blueprint (for disaster) and now I've been built with structural damage.

posted by: tbok at 10:43 am

i'm addicted to 'naive orleans' by anberlin.

i have a thing [against][for] studs.
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The Format will be going on their own headlining tour from July 7th to August 3rd. The main support will be Steel Train with Reubens Accomplice, hellogoodbye, Jenoah, Maxeen, Days Away, and Robber On High Street on select dates. The confirmed dates will be up within the next week or so.

-dies of hapiness-

Sunday, May 23, 2004

i got the comment thing to work! so comment if you will.

>danielle, call me. ive called u twice and ur never home. therefore, call me when you ARE home.

today should be proclaimed a national holiday. or we should have a party. why? cuz im off AOL Guardian for no reason. hmm. maybe my dad read this and realized how much i hated it. SCORE!!

Dear Member,

We wanted to let you know that ___________ has asked to stop receiving the AOL Guardian e-mail.

This means that the AOL Guardian email will no longer be active for your screen name and that ____________ will stop receiving e-mails summarizing your activities online.

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awesomeeee. so i got my second roll of soco/yellowcard pix back...the pic with me and brian is cute but i look a wee bit satanic cuz iw as about to talk and then the woman snapped the picture. why is it that whenever i need someone to take a picture they cant do it properly!? its just point and snap. not mess with the buttons and shake the camera. anyway, after walking in the sweltering heat for two hours, got to loews and went to see 13 going on 20 with tima. it is the happiest movie ever. tima and i danced in our sesats to 80s music. i need to get the soundtrack. went to baskin-robbins/dunkin donuts and got ice cream and a donut. im never EVER doing that again cuz afterwards i wanted to barf. got driven to virgin, and read magazines. went home to study for math. die die die.

i had WAY too much fun watching the 2 hours of VH1's 50 Most Awesomely Bad Videos...ever. i was laughing my ass off and the sad thing is, i liked most of the songs on it. why? cuz they were 80s music. sighs. the dude from radar magazine was so cute...i think he mightve been gay, tho. or he was short. huh? i dont know what im talking about.

on another note, I CAN TEXT MESSAGE AGAIN! *dances* its nice to be able to again..i got a massive kick out of seeing the 'sent' icon and sent out like 2384729843798 text messages with random stuff. ok fine, i only sent out 2, but yeah.

Saturday, May 22, 2004

the starland ballroom. somewhere in jersey where bands go to play shows and end up by-passing nyc, and where ill be on june 18th. complete hotness.

aisha and tima are going to try and come with me and my cousin to the show. *fingers crossed*

why couldnt the doctor just keep my dad on painkillers or whatever medicine he was on? he was so mellow and drowsy all the time. now as soon as he gets up he starts yelling at me about how i dont do anything. and after that, he starts shouting at me to start puting together a lamp that isnt even MINE. fucker.

1. awesome kanuk tshirt
2."don't eat me, im chinese!" shirt

>...or just the entire page in general.

Friday, May 21, 2004

"love, love will tear us apart..."
i have the fob cover of joy division's 'love will tear us apart' stuck in my head. so, we got the dvd today, after a bit of drama with haifas driver, miscommunications, messed up plans, etc. walking down from chinese, aisha caught up with me and told me the dvds came and i flipped out. i stood there, gaping, and my mouth was just open and i didnt know what to do with myself. i looked completely absurd. ahh ive been spelling that word wrong froever. ive been spelling it ubsurd. but anyway, the dvd is possibly the happiest thing in my life. it really made my day seeing pete pissing every ten seconds, patrick being the little dork that he was and...moonwalking? craziness. my mom thought andy looked evil, and shouldnt like anybody that has tattoos. uh. ok. and joe has a mini lisp after all. pete made a comment about kids that go to all the shows and it made me happy.

so i fell asleep during the movie in double history. such a little bum. i dont think im failing french for once. dude. i DO think im failing chem, tho. everytime i looked up lenis was drawing some more nonsense nomenclature stuff and i wanted to throw my pen at him. he did make a really hilarious comment about the mets and MET in organic chemistry. yeah.

i didnt eat lunch so i could run lines with rhia. i had ALL my lines and actions perfectly memorized...but then wen we actually did it, i got so nervous my hands began to shake like crazy and i started to sweat like mad and feel suffocated. not good. we didnt get into the othello thing cuz we werent polished enough and were too confusing. :-/

chinese and bio were kinda a blur to me cuz i was exhausted after the little othello play..i just remember laughing everytime jon did this song he made up about jews...i got the same score on my bio retest as i did last time. its cuz i messed up every question on meiosis, and on the miltiple choice i crossed out many of my answers and opted for my second thoughts. stupid.

spent 2 and a half hours sitting on my couch, transfixed by footage on the dvd, and blabbing to my cousin about everything. goood stuff.

Thursday, May 20, 2004

dysfuntional family picnic [8?] sponspered by K-Rock. W/ Taking Back Sunday, Brand New. -dies- its $80. what am i going to do...

im so tired. oh dear...and i havent put together a costume yet for othello. BUT i have more or less memorized my lines. i just need to remember wen they come in lol.

my brother casually informed me this morning it was 8:15 AM. and i was still in bed. i freaked and miraculously was out the door in five minutes. how i washed my face and got dressed in 5 minutes...is a mystery. bio was funny. we were learning about some chromosome malfunction like klinefelters (but not klinefelters) that made some women not have ovaries, breasts...and have webbed necks. alex couldnt get over the fact they had webbed necks and kept on talking about different cosmestic surgeries they could ahve to remove it. lol. good stuff.

i think my chinese teacher is finally starting to become pissy with us. we have severe ADD during all our classes, or fall asleep, and jon and tim are always playing with their motherfucking cel phones which are ugly as hell anyway, regardless of how many flashing seizure inducing lights they put on it to prevent you from seeing the $2 cracking plastic case its in. its annoying. tim needs a life outside of...cell phones and cars. its sad. little rant right there.

lunch was highly amusing. i spent most of it talking to annie and robert about smallville, all of us giving randy in impromptu birthday hug, and iPoding. muchos, muchos fun.

we got our of our music seminar test to watch the first three acts of 'you cant take it with you', the t2 drama class play. it was funny. misha and i were laughing at alot of the wrong parts tho for the wrong reasons. and she was way too excited for the james toga scene lol. i think my favorite characters were jenny, lucea, and rafi...the rest were ok. mhm. i hate ghoussoub. shes satan i swear.

afterschool misha and i went to the waterside plaza area to sit around until the second show of the t2 drama play. she was going thru my cell phone phonebook and stumbled upon petes number. she called it from my phone but i freaked and grabbed it and hung up. then she called on her cell phone, and lef this massively giddy and perky message about how 'one day well find our way to each other...write songs about me..." something like that. but it was so ubsurd..i didnt notice she had called again until she was began going "hello? hey..hi? hi!"... and i freaked. completely. i was literally about to have an aneuyrsm.

misha: oh...did i wake you up?
pete: no...[groggy rambling]
misha: did you hear my message? did it wake you up?
pete: no..
misha: well i wont keep you..i just want to tell you i love your music [blah blah] and im going to see you on the june 16th show in new york city...
pete: really? cool!
misha: ok..bye!
pete: bye!

*click* and i almost slumped over in shock. im so ubsurd. at the point we both flipped and started bouncing around for pretty much no reason. ahhh. ahhh. so we went to the play, and it was a million times better than before. it was really funny and i really really liked it. i think im supposed to write a review for unisverse about it. shiit. so after the show, got tima and haifa, and left. told aisha the little pete anecdote. aisha called later, and made me completely paranoid. why? cuz pete wouldnt give everyone his number. and if he thought it was me...oh dear. i dont know what to do. im not spastic. im perfectly normal with him. ok calm down. ahhhhhh

Wednesday, May 19, 2004

i have so much work and so little focus. how the hell am i going to thoroughly memorize all my lines for othello, finish my New Deal essay for history, and work more on ym unisverse article with my attention span of a gnat? NEVER.

chinese and french were hell. who the hell thought up putting two language classes next to each other first thing in the morning? an imbecile obviously. and spent more time on the math couch which is starting to grow on me. lol sure it is. its comfy and thats all. unless you plop down on it and -dear god!- its on the divisional wooden plank thing and i feel like youve fractured your tail bone.

moving on. suleimon/alex/hassans othello play for english was the funniest thing in my life. i died. i was laughing so hard i couldnt breathe. i think its cuz it was completely ubsurd. good job on it tho. i think THEY should represent our class in the othello competition. or choung and gonzalo's gay iago/butch emilia play. if choung learned his lines he could make a career or something. we completely made up a new scene for ours. and i cant memorize my soliloquey cuz i suck. blehh.

so for me and jennys point of view in history class with DUTTI, if you compare the YMCA and hitler's youth groups you see many similarities. when you are bored shitless and delierious, you begin to think that the YMCA could take over the world. huh.

and that was my day.

Tuesday, May 18, 2004

moshing in the van by peter wentz.
a brilliant photo album by nick plan.

im still not done with my damn history essay which i COMPLETELY procrastinated on cuz i was taking a relly long nap, learning othello lines, and watching the season finale of gilmore girls. mwahaha rory and dean finally bang. good, good episode. :P i couldnt take some of the sappy cheesy scenes tho. i watched most of the ep with a pillow over my eyes.

i love day ones...so easy-going and such...but anyway. chinese, math, blah. during mentor we watched some flamenco dance troupe dance and they were AWESOME. aahh. i was highly amused by the small limber filipino man lol. during english rhia, sarah, lizwa, candace and i practiced our little othello skit...were getting better. i just dont want to suck. who cares if we dont win.

i love gym more and more. actually, no. i only like gym when its disrupted and we end up doiong something else, like playing longtime, or...running around on the roof in the pelting rain. GOOD. STUFF. we were completely drenched and i didnt dry...till like 6 pm. it was pretty bad. but so much fun, and worth disobeying glavez. i cant think straight right now. volleyball is always more fun than a sleezy game of softball.

Monday, May 17, 2004

i dont understand why jimmy fallon would even THINK of leaving saturday night live.

my brother is going to be a culinary college chef extraordinaire. he can do so much with such a small amount of resources. he made me a home made chocolate brownie souffle-type thing cuz i was about to have a break down when i realized how much work i have to do. i love him.

-wednesday: HISTORY ESSAY on something i dont know + memorize othello lines
-thursday: T2 DRAMA PLAY and unisverse article on it + memorize and rehearse othello
-friday: OTHELLO play

what am i going to do...ive decided banton is out of his mind. every other class has no restriction to the time limit or whatever. saschas class is three minutes tops. ours is three minutes per person. i see soemthing wrong with this picture.
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The Strokes, The Darkness, Cypress Hill, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Story of the Year, New Found Glory, Midtown, Brand New, Taking Back Sunday, and Beastie Boys will be playing K-Rock's Dysfunctional Family Picnic. Ticket on sale May 22nd.

It's on Saturday June 19. i hope its not too much cuz i want to go.

tomorrow the fob dvd/ep is coming out. and i wont have it cuz our pre-order fudged up. bleh.

the fact that im under aol guardian has made me neurotic and paranoid. im not doing anything illegal or whatever, but its just makes me so much more insecure. my every move is under watch and i hate that. have ya ever heard of privacy? maybe ill make this blogger private.

i hate a really really shit day. really shit. after my bio test during which i completely spaced out during, i left and almost passed out in the hallway. i felt so dizzy and disoriented i didnt know what to do. so i went to karens and passed out on the bed for two periods. 3 tylenols didnt work either. my mom thinks it happened cuz a) my iron count is low AGAIN, b) i havent been eating properly, or c) my retarded period is gonna start again.

great.

so blah blah lunch, music seminar, math, chinese. i fell asleep during the chinese movie cuz it was so bad. im in bad shape. afterschool, rhia, candace, sarah, lizwa, and i practived our othello play in siefrings room. tiring. now im doing some unisverse article. i suck at this. rar.

i cant get over my lj layout. its got to be one of my favorites to date.

Sunday, May 16, 2004

i gotta say, signing online and having that delightful little fucking box pop up and remind me im under a watch is really fun. day 2 of my dad stalking me. im not having a good day. my mother gave a half an hour lecture about how i hate her, how i have no morals, no prioroties, how we have to adjust to my fathers behavior etc. she just doesnt get that i cant turn back into that little girl she remembers. shit im crying again. i put in again cuz i spent about an hour bawling after the lecture. i had really horrible thoughts about myself going thru my head and i dont know what to do under this pressure. i really dont. i have so much on my mind and i cant function normally. and im fucking PMSing, and i have spontaneously started tearing through out the past few hours. this is sad. why am i admitting to this. my dad has ruined my life. i wish i could get away from him. my mom said this is 'revenge' for not liking going to his office every fucking sunday and photocopy and help him sort files. right.

"You're more punk, hardcore, mod, straightedge, emo, indie than me. Your hair is cooler, your pants are tighter, you have more tattoos. You have cooler pins on your messenger bag and your favorite band is more obscure than mine. Your shoes are more vintage and so is your t-shirt. You own more black clothes than me. I don't even own a denim jacket. Your glasses are thicker and blacker than mine, the plugs in your ears are bigger. You know more people in bands and your black jelly bracelets are the envy of scenesters everywhere. Your photography is blacker and whiter, your Madradhair profile is wittier, and you have much better soul records. Your tie is whiter, or redder, or blacker. Your scene points are double, perhaps triple, mine. Because as we all know, that's what really matters. In a scene where the music has taken a backseat to the haircuts, you win and I lose."

my layout..on lj...tima is my hero. she does wonders. at this rate all should be right in the world. jesper...red shirt...stomach cleavage...on the couch...lying down...*dirty thoughts* lolol.

so were not getting our fob dvd/eps any time soon. were getting them like next week. i dont know what im going to do. we pre-ordered via haifa and somehow she didnt put in her bulding number so it didnt work out. i dont know what im going to do. i was staring blankly at the screen in semi disbelief. ive been looking forward to this for the past 2 months and now its delayed. im going to be one of the last ppl to get the dvd. oh dear. kiss that poloroid goodbye, jen. thats not even the least of my concerns! i just want to see the fucking dvd!!

and my mom is yelling at me again about how i have no responsibility. and how i have no cares for the family, its all about friends and internet. the reason why ive grown apart is that my parents keep closing in on me and wont get off my back. its frustrating. and u begin to feel resentful and suffocated and u just need to gET AWAY.

Saturday, May 15, 2004

you know, i was having a pretty good day until i signed online and this 'AOL Guardian' thing popped up. apparently my dad has chosen to have me monitored via AOL:

Dear Member,

RICHARDKENG has asked to receive the AOL Guardian e-mail with a summary of your online activities.

The AOL Guardian e-mail your parent receives will include:

* The time you signed on to AOL and how long you spent online
* The Web sites you visited
* The Web sites you tried to visit even if the Web site was blocked
* Your IM and Buddy List activity
* Your e-mail and Address Book activity

When you sign on to AOL, you will see an indicator that lets you know the AOL Guardian is active for your screen name.

Sincerely,

AOL Member Services Team

oh this is great. really really awesome. top notch fun right there! this is an infringment on my rights. its like freaking stalking me. ooh lets see who my daughter talks to and what sites she goes to cuz we all know how shes talking to strangers and reading her friends' ljs and bloggers. right. yeah of course i do that cuz u kno, im stupid like that. well you know what, dad, if you see this blogger or my livejournal, i hope you like the content. because im fucking pissed at you and i dont know when ill get over it. maybe now youll understand why i cant stand you most of the time. crack. i hate AOL. and my mother started rambling about how 'oh this family means nothing to you its just about ur friends and internet!'. i hate this little fucking assumptions she makes about me. the fact that they dont trust me and critisize me for every little thing i do is what drives me away from them. give me fucking room to breathe, man.

ANYWAY. i met up with jenny at the 23rd st. 6 train station and we took it down to marthas. the subway lines were messed up so we ended up waiting around FOREVER. got downtown, walked to J&R so i could drop off film, and then went to the movie theatre. met up with marfa, went to get misha from the bridge near stuy, went to LiLis to eat like we always do. were such crackheads. really we are. they have the best chicken lo mein ever. rar. so we went into the theatre, got seats, and the movie started around 3:20. im so pissed off at this aol guradian think i cant be somewhat intersting about this.

i hate being around obnoxious ppl wen im not in the mood. so we saw TROY. and i fell in love. i loved the movie so much i didnt know what to do with myself. while jenny, martha, and misha made little jokes throughout the movie, i sat there kinda entranced. i love eric bana and brad pitt so much. AHH. aahh. i sat there with tears and in my eyes and almost started bawling a couple times. i was so emotionally unstable for the majority of the movie and afterwards it was PATHETIC. someone is having mood swings...but yes, very nicely done movie. new favorite movie as of now. STAB ORLANDO BLOOM IN THE HEAD. hated him. rar. some ppl in the theatre kept laughing at really "serious" scenes, and alot of brad pitt and orlando bloom scenes. and i had a crush on the cousin. and i almost cried wen he died. so sad.

afterward, walked along the river and hung out. jenny martha and i went to marthas and started watching anna and the king. were so strange. went home.

ohh noo amy has shown me pictures of this guy named mischa in her grade and...hes awesome. hes this mixed russian chinese kid she told me about last week. i didnt know how a russian-chinese mix would turn out but now i see its a good mix. very very good mix. i dont know what to do with myself. im just a big fat dork. :P

my head hurts a little. and i have a stomach ache. is it the mcdonalds that got misha, mumu, and i feeling shitty? who knows. damned movie.

my heart is the worst kind of weapon- fob: stuck in my head the ENTIRE day
spent most of last night
dragging this lake
for the corpses of all my past mistakes
sell me out, the jokes on you
he is salt and you are the wound
empty another bottle
and let me tear you to pieces
this is me wishing you into the worst situations
i'm the kind of kid that can't let anything go
but you wouldn't know a good thing if it came up and slit your throat
whoa whoa oooh whoa whoa
your remorse hasn't fallen on deaf ears
rather ones that just don't care
cause i know
that you're in between arms somewhere
next to heartbeats where you shouldn't be asleep
now i'll teach you a lesson for keeping secrets from me
take your taste back
peel back your skin
and try to forget how it feels inside
you should try saying no once in a while
oh once in a while
take your taste back peel back your skin
and try to forget how it feels inside
you should try saying no once in a while
oh once in a while
and did you hear the news
i could dissect you and gut you on this stage
not as elequent as i may have imagined
but it will get the job done
you're done
every line is plotted and designed
to leave you standing on your bedroom windows ledge
and everyone else that it hits
that it gets to
is nothing more than collateral damage
take your taste back
peel back your skin
and try to forget how it feels inside
you should try saying no once in a while
oh once in a while
take your taste back peel back your skin
and try to forget how it feels inside
you try saying no once in a while
oh once in a while

Friday, May 14, 2004

motherfucking computer. tried to save the pete interview on my comp but its just not working and its really really pissing the shit out of me. its the funniest interview in the world. i keep on laughing at everything. oy. WORK, YOU BASTARD!! anyway.

i had a ridiculously good day. i have no idea why. i had three tests but was still, really good day. the english passage commentary went pretty well...i think. i rambled and i became repetitive. ehh. i got out early and sat for 20 mins by my locker studying my notes. chem test went really compared to any other chem test ive taken this year. i calculated the answers i knew were right and half-credit ones, and it amounted to about 80%. GOOD STUFF. in math jenny and i spent most of it furiously writing trivia about sea animals. right. and lunch was pretty boring, but i got 94% on my chinese test so that made me happy. and we watched a movie in french. bwahahaha.

misha and i hung around the library after school, picked up sarah e from chorus, then walked to the M15 and took it down to houston. walked around the soho area until we found the angelika theatre and went in to see 'supersize me'. funny funny stuff. made u crave McDonald's, though, regardless of its fat content and stuff. after the movie, being pathetic little children, we went straight to mcodnalds and binged and made fat jokes and references. lost motor skills. haa. so we walked to the 103, passed random shops...with skeletons that really scared the fuck out of me. the salesman point up and sed "we all ahve one of these..." and i promptly freaked for no good reason and left. for some weird reason, there are mass amounts of cute guys in the soho area. why did i never notice this before. and to think i used to live close to there in tribeca. so we jogged after an M103 and went home.

so the full story of the T1 canoe trip was ppl started to play strip soccer, and everytime the guy or girls team scored, they picked one perosn from the other team and that person had to show their boobs or the guys had to pull down their pants. and some ppl were smoking in canoes, and someone brought porn on a laptop. bibi and monique were telling us about all this grade unity stuff...yeah.

on another note, happy bday to my mommy.

i got my pink bat clandestine shirt in the mail today. its the hottest thing in my life. aisha and maria are at an orgy concert. i need to make my mom a bday card. i am such a bum.

Angrylittleme [8:30 PM]: and im so happy
Fufa33 [8:30 PM]: yayy
Angrylittleme [8:30 PM]: i could dance
Fufa33 [8:30 PM]: omg!!
Angrylittleme [8:30 PM]: iiiii know!
Angrylittleme [8:30 PM]: insanity
Fufa33 [8:30 PM]: omg i was gonna say lets do a little dnace
Angrylittleme [8:30 PM]: make a little love?
Angrylittleme [8:30 PM]: get down tonight?
Fufa33 [8:30 PM]: heyy
Fufa33 [8:30 PM]: i was gonn say thaty too!!!!
Angrylittleme [8:30 PM]: oh hank u always were the perfect gentleman
Fufa33 [8:30 PM]: duuuuuuuuuuuude
Angrylittleme [8:30 PM]: whoaaaa
Fufa33 [8:30 PM]: lol
Fufa33 [8:31 PM]: we r complete spazes
Angrylittleme [8:31 PM]: SERIOUSLY
Angrylittleme [8:31 PM]: were just hank and jim
Fufa33 [8:31 PM]: hehe

i. hate. this. new. blogger. layout. die. stab.

its kind of weird--ive been studying my ARSE off for the last, what, 6 hours? and im not tired. at all. in fact im rather perky and happy. so strange. i swear its the chewy bars. i think im just so damn happy that i understand my chem. this is something new to me. the entire semester ive sat in chem class completely lost. and now...is see the light. bwahahah. its amazing how in a single period, half our class stuffed ourselves into an afshinnekoo chem tutor session and learned everything lenis has tried to teach us the past month. bless ur soul afshinnekoo. whoever sed he reminds them of dariush is right. its insane. um yes. watched more of that damn french move and hung out during the triple free. haifa and i bounced around from their band practice, to studying, to roasting our brains on the roof. i felt pretty woozy after that. heat stroke, anyone? bio and math. whoop de doo. kiri and i interviewed mr sheir for SO LONG for a unisverse article.

the T1s came back a day early from camp cuz some of the went streaking and did all sorts of inappropriate stuff. ooh scandelous. to tell u the truth, i think it was dumb they did it, cuz now theyre fucking up the canoe trips for future classes and stuff. it probably wouldve have been such a hugh deal if it were just guys or just girls but it was both. hmm.

im pissed that aisha and i forgot about the fob pre-order till 5PM the day of pre-orders. im uber pissed. i doubt were getting a poloroid. poo.

on another note, we got on the punchline on the street team cuz were just little p-line hos like that.

Wednesday, May 12, 2004

i did the dumbest thing after school. jenny and i went to afshinnekoo so i could ask him about chem review sessions. i popped myself into the room and asked "my afshinnekoo tomorrow do u have any free time to tutor chem?" and he sed he did 4th and 5th, so i thanked him and skipped out of the room or whatever. i didnt realize that lenis was sitting at his desk and looking at me in a strange manner. i only found out when jenny whispered loudly "omg jennie--lenis! sitting there at his desk!"
me: huh? OH SHIT!!

and i felt really bad. :'(

im sitting by my computer laughing at every single thing that comes out of peter wentz's mouth and its becoming a bit pathetic. what am i talking about its ridiculously pathetic. [find fall out boy on the left column] only problem is that it rebuffers every freaking minute...

weather is shit. too fucking hot and humid. ughh. ledenev kept on catching jenny wen she read notes from either me and danja. so funny. i fucked up my history ID's cuz i completely forgot everything for some reason after hearing Nicholas II wasnt on the ID list or something. so i did like mini paragraphs...and a page on Nicholas II for no reason. ehhh. it was too hot to play 'softball' outside. i felt like someone stuck me in a sauna or something. i was really out of it so i kept missing the balls. lol one time it went thru my legs and a few times i just couldnt be bothered to get slow balls that went right past me...chem sucked as usual. muahaha i think that jose is starting to get a little pissy. went to the drama classes play practice for a little bit, then misha annie and i went to delano to sit around and talk about random stuff.

im dont think im straight edge. just because i dont drink or do pot or anything doesnt make me sXe. im just bothered whenever im labeled regardless of what it is. i just cant be bothered to get drunk and high every weekend and act like an idiot.

i officially have THE hottest lj layout in all creation. jesper=sex. THANK YOU TIMa!

Tuesday, May 11, 2004

i should be doing two things: studying for my history ID test on the fcking russian revolution and my chem homework. i actually attempted to do it but really didnt get far. i looked at the worksheet then put it away because there is no way in hell i couldve done it. after a truly shit chem class hank, maria, vero, and i went to mr kahn to see wat was gonna happen to our grades. he sed hell make sure we get all the help we need, and that hell make sure our grades at the end of the year are fair. hmm. good man good man. i cant believe lenis wasnt fired after like a month. like really. hes horrible. a good guy, but just not teacher material. he has no communication skills. weve lost pretty much all our respect and the respect that we do give him i think is out of pity and guilt. im thoroughly fucked. the only thing i really have from his class is the little book of lenis quotes hank and i compiled in the back of my book.

we had a sub for french. someone up there loves me. i ate out in the lobby with maria, hank, and ali, and ali spent the whole time harrassing haifas ass. i found it a little bit disturbing, but whatever. he named marias boobs anna and kournivova. funny funny. almost fell asleep in english. we played a game in chinese. i like games. lol i feel so simple minded right now, me and my little sentences. i dont understand why they make us have bio either during last periods or first thing in the morning.

things pissed me off today. RAR RAR RAR. in addition to those few things, gilmore girls is ruined. jess is gone. -cries- BUT. rory and dean screw. so weve got lost innocent and adultery. most excellent. and on one tree hill, they used every single teen drama cliche in existance. so funny. and tree hill is infested with ravens and horny fucks.

Monday, May 10, 2004

im not liking this new blogger edit page. its bothersome. im feeling very nostalgic and wanting to go to a show. damned punchline CD for making me wanna go.

slacking as usual. things to do:
-2 unisverse articles
-study for chem, chinese, history tests

UGH.

mirrors are the devil. getting a 4+ on ur bio test cuz of fucking retarded multiple choice sucks. i started laughing in math cuz i was so delirious and needed to get the fuck out. chinese is boring. during history dutti and audrey were arguing about slavery in the south after it was abolished... okies.

i swear to god music seminar was the most boring class i have EVER sad thru. diaz decided that it would be fun to play beethoven sonatas for us...for half an hour. looking up every few minutes, more and more heads fell onto the desks, and after a little while, i began to suffer from severe delirium. i started giggling and then laughing and i couldnt stop. the entire scene was just completely ridiculous...everyone was almost drop dead on their tables or their spines unable to stay up...i couldnt take it. and diaz just stood there, rambling about beethovens genius and i so badly wanted to take bens crutch and hurl it like a javiland at diaz's head. somehow the period ended (although i thought i had been sitting forever) and we went outside for our break. breaks have never been so welcome. then we watched some beethoven movie..

french movies that suck:

-"jetlagged" or whatever movie we saw at noras that i fell asleep during NOT ONLY because i had pulled an almost all nighter the night before, but cuz it was just SO. BAD.

-"__________ papillon", the one we're watching in french class now with hadjeres's class. i fell asleep during it cuz its so slow and the plot...makes no sense. whenever i did look up, i felt like i was on crack or something. one second theyre in an appliance store, the next second the man is in a white room with a chinese lady playing with cans. WHAT THE FUCK. its like a bad love actually or something.

afterschool i somehow got assigned 2 unisverse articles. funny thing is im not even part of it. ran around trying to find ppl and get articles assigned. running into guitar practice is fun.

what the HELL happened to the edit blogger page. its weird. mhm. anyway, stole this OK!Cupid thing off danjas xanga. its interesting. haha go for the loverboy. suuure.

i ordered my pink clandestine bat tshirt. it looks so hot.

Sunday, May 09, 2004

my dad pisses me off like no other. i havent spoken to him willingly in over a week and he wont fucking get off my back wen he does talk to me. he seems intent on giving me hell because i hate going to his office every sunday. so i didnt go today. i was counting down the minutes until he left the house for work today. this isnt how it should be but he has driven me to this point of insanity. this emotional scarring will probably stay with me for a long, long time. ugh. on another note, i want the schools cous cous really bad. :-/

aisha and i almost died from laughter over the phone at 2AM over the thought of her sleeping on the stoop of the knitting factory in anticipation of FOb...it was funnier wen it actually happened. sighs. good times.

Saturday, May 08, 2004

'babies of the 80s' by SoCo is growing on me. aisha called me around noon and i groggily picked up the phone. she started talking about...something but i wasnt registering at all.

aisha: [blah blah] and wat would pete have to do to show off a tattoo on his stomach??
me: huh?...[pause] OMG TAKE HIS SHIRT OFF>?!
aisha: yes!! from head to thigh!
me: aaaahhhhhh...

it was freaking insane. the 2 pictures he put up. happy making to the fullest. and then he took them down. but i was neurotic and saved it on paint. the clandestine tattoo was pretty cool. spent the day online, then nicholas and i went to borders to get mom something. blah blah went home. and now im bored. i need to join the punchline street team.

Friday, May 07, 2004

my room is so. hot. ugh. and my dad is being the bum that he is a refusing to let me turn on the AC. i think either im sick or i have horrible allergies that cause me to use a box of tissue a week. ghoussoub was a bastard and pulled our class out of a movie to sit in class and discuss the EU. stab stab. chinese class often goes as a blur to me cuz i get so uninterested. math blah. jenny and i spent 3 free periods straight finishing off our history powerpoint presentation and obviously bothered ppl passing by cuz we kept collapsing on the computers of laughter at..everything. everything is better when youre delirious cuz ur so damn hungry. so english...sat and planned out our othello play further. jenny and i did our powerpoint presentation second and took like half an hour or something. it was sad seeing us randomly start laughing like mad at our unedited slides (eg WWI=hitler). but our first and last slides were brilliant. the first one had monkey screeches. and the last page had dancing monkeys hehe. so that was fun.

afterschool went with ppl to mcdonalds. randomly started talking about herpes and this big guy next to us was like 'not to offend any of you, but we're in a restaurant...' and tried to subtly tell us u dont talk about herpes in a restaurant while ppl eat. and then later on, he started saying loudly under his breath (sounding like de souza) "freak...FREAK..." so funny. laughed too hard. helen brought in her F.I.T. portfolio and i started thinking how stupid it was i didnt take fashion courses/stopped making mini portfolios for myself. sighs. went with misha and jenny to loews to see VAN HELSING cuz were little dorks. during the previews a 'the seed of chucky' commecial came up and i FREAKING. i couldnt take it (scarring experience in m1...)

van helsing is hilarious. we sat there with a little running commentary and laughing at the horror scenes. the whole movie was ubsurd and ridiculous; and latin music in the middle of a vampire action movie. wtf. aside from the fact we were uber obnoxious...it was just bad. good things: foxy warewolf man, hugh jackman. i freaked wen dracula walked on the walls. i started shrieking and curling up...i dunno why that happens to me. i kno i freak wen santiago does it in interview with the vampire but thats about it...dunno. FARAMIR from lotr was in it! that just made the movie so much more amusing. and my favorite scenes were from the last 10 mins...and frankenstein rowing into the sunset. now where the hell is he going. where CAN he go?hmm.

misha, jenny, and i went to borders and had fun with kiddie books, pop-up and sound effect bottons and all. fun but scared little children. we seriously looked like the 'special kids' or freaking retards cuz we were sitting in a ltitle corner reading an alice in wonderland book and misha was stroking the fur of a book. it was truly sad.

i am obviously not deep enough to understand the concept of their tour art.

Thursday, May 06, 2004

i was up at 2 AM last night finishing off timas jesperday present. it was beautiful and i wanted to take a picture of it. i packaged a chocolate chip chewy bar in a little jesper wrapper and it was so pretty i didnt want her to open it. how sad of me. tima made me the coolest little jesper wallet. :P

...taking a break from my history powerpoint presentation thats due tomorrow. heh. my head is still kinda hurting from running around like a freaking ditz for the entire gym period. uh chinese and math were boring. during mentor i didnt really partake in the discussion of cultural identities and comparisons between american culture and those of other countries cuz i wouldnt have anything to contribute cuz ive lived only here all my life. unless you count connecticut which is the same thing. bah. i hate english and i hate othello. and im not having that much fun with banton as our teacher. i dont feel constructive at all, and frankly, i like doing english journals. for once i think gym was the most fun ever. we started off playing a shit game of "softball" and then after someone hit the ball off the roof, galvez kinda gave us free choice on the roof. misha, jenny, jojo, helen, and i found rackets in the shed and jenny, misha, and i started playing Longtime, this game we made up in summercamp a few years ago. rules: dont let the ball stop moving at any costs. and its so much more constructive than baseball in terms of running around like mad. i did that for almost an hour and a half in the sweltering heat. then helen, jojo, and gottlieb came and we finished off the gym period. i almost died laughing on a few occasions and we hit at least 10 balls off the side. bah chem die. i was exhausted from playing longtime and was really catty. not fun for anyone. nobody should mess with me when im pms-ing in addition to that. rawr. afterschool, hung aorund, worked on history powerpoint thing with jenny. again almost died from laughter at monkey noises. our presentation is fcking brilliant.

last new ep of friends EVER. thats so sad.

Wednesday, May 05, 2004

i dont quite feel like myself. in fact im really out of it and have been 'passing out' all over the place..on my couch, in my bed, on my chair. i dont know why. my head is throbbing, my body is sore, and i feel like im suffocating. i need sleep and i need a clear mind. i need to get away from my damn school.

started off the day with an insane bio test. damn multiple choice. english is shit. history..jenny and i truly almost died of laughter putting together the first few slides of our power point presentation on the scopes monkey trial. retarded mokeys are always fun. happy jesper day again (its his week). tima made me the hottest sticker ever and i didnt know what to do with myself i was such a little wreck. music seminar is the shittiest class in all creation. i think i fell asleep in that too. math was shit, chinese was shit. im glad im dropping it next year, i dont think i like it much any more. :-/ went to jennys house after school to work on the history thing, btu it turned out she didnt have powerpoint so we kinda just hung around. went home. laze around. fuck homework and love fall out boy.

my heart is the worst kind of weapon.

pete stuff-5/5/04 tour journal>

trophy boys.
last time you said the songs we sang saved your life, this time i want to know what you have done with the life we left you. i used to breathe for myself before i got so obsessed. i i ive become su su such a stuttering wreck. just so long as my friends have courtside seats as we head towards failure, did you get what you were after? we fall in love with disaster.
they say "haven't you heard the, word on the streets is that you lost it" (but we never had "it" to start)- they try and seperate the voice from the words from the smile from the heart
and the worst part will be when you hear this- you didn't think the songs would stop just because you stopped calling me (late at night) and pretend for a second it's not you lying (liar) between the hooks and screams- "slit your wrists kid, cause this is all she gets."
i only told you what you wanted to hear- cause i couldn't bear to let you down- i gave it to you. you wanted pretentious, i only want you undressed and defensless (nameless and hopeless). tonight i'm ready to settle (for anyone, anywhere). i'll play along- pick you out of the crowd. ill tell you anything, i won't call you out. i don't care that i'm just like the boys i've trashed in all these songs- you should have known all along. i could never live up to what you made me out to be. with all your cheap words about hearts and accidents who are you kidding?
here's a card i never played
this is the remix of sincerity
harden these hearts, rename them invincible
sing everything you've ever loved into your stereo
why would anyone ever care what i have to say? but they pick apart every word til it makes no sense anyway. this was never my intention- "what would you do with out all the attention".

Tuesday, May 04, 2004

tima and i decided today is jesper day. so happy jesper day/week to everyone.

supreme jaffa [11:42 PM]: OOO SEX
Angrylittleme [11:42 PM]: YES
Angrylittleme [11:43 PM]: and the next one is ebtter
supreme jaffa [11:43 PM]: u want shirtless for layout???
Angrylittleme [11:43 PM]: SURE
Angrylittleme [11:43 PM]: its a work of art
supreme jaffa [11:43 PM]: YES aargh soo hott
supreme jaffa [11:43 PM]: he drives me mad
Angrylittleme [11:44 PM]: i died.
supreme jaffa [11:44 PM]: and making me want him
supreme jaffa [11:44 PM]: and now i cant focus
supreme jaffa [11:44 PM]: fuck
Angrylittleme [11:44 PM]: thats why we had jesper day, tima
supreme jaffa [11:44 PM]: can it be jesper day tommorow aswell
Angrylittleme [11:44 PM]: why not jesper week
supreme jaffa [11:44 PM]: ok score
Angrylittleme [11:44 PM]: and then well have ___ week next week
__________

...taking another break from studying for my bio test. blah blah blah. i had random giggle fits during chem. i cant take that class. haifa and i laughed at the idea of us taking higher chem (which were not). hjaifa, vero, and i went to rahda to talk to her about jose. hes not coming back next year, she said. SCORE!!! :P blah rest of the day. watched a terrible movie in french with hadjeres's class. i wanted to hit ppl in the back who kept talking but none of that mattered anyway after i fell asleep...afterschool hung around the plaza with people, got locked out of house again, hung around outside my door. i feel bad i missed my brothers science fair cuz my teachers are mofos. i got my pictures back from blindside/phanplan/IMX (i look so demented lol), punchline (decent loveliness), and the first of soco/YC/the format (he..he...he..i love andrew.) it made me happy.

my cousin got a mini pink iPod for no reason. my parents need to stop being so damn stingy and BUY ME SOMETHING. seriously my dad is such a cheapskate it makes me sick. theyre trying to make me get it with my own money but i refuse. so i figure ill just get it from X-MAS...sighs. tears.

now back to studying for bio...
__________

tao of tima:

supreme jaffa [11:31 PM]: TAKIGN BACK SUNDAY ALBUM IN JULY
supreme jaffa [11:31 PM]: score
...
Angrylittleme [11:32 PM]: but will it be good without john
Angrylittleme [11:32 PM]: thats the question
supreme jaffa [11:32 PM]: nothin is good without john, especially not sex
Angrylittleme [11:32 PM]: amen.
__________

why i love punchline steve:

"Mugshot is an amazing band but I dont appreciate their canadian antics."

Monday, May 03, 2004

jesper is such a model.

my mom likes 'the reason' by hoobastank. she likes even more that doug the lead singer is asian. sighs.

petes tour journal musings...

--Sunday, May 02, 2004--
i can't sleep whenever i think of you.

its funny how my life has become just a series of weighing what i can get away with versus how many times i am caught (up). i used to obsess over not fitting in anywhere with anyone. now i only obsess over you. i can't believe you don't see through me. you leave me feeling cool not the highschool brand or the scene brand but something bigger and better. i feel it in my ankles and shoulders tightening and tingling and places i never have felt anything for anyone. when you brush my arm with your hand i am electric.

iwantthispinkclandestinebatshirt

my swedish sex god jesper and co.

its weird how on a crap day (outside) i had a relatively good day. i really treasure these 'good days' cuz the bad ones...are truly hell. and i had alot of those recently. i think the videos we see in chem are the funniest things ever...they make me uber obnoxious. the dude reminds randy and me of dr. jones from 'the red valley'. awesome awesome movie from the good ol' days in chinese class with ms. li. i hate how now we have to work. bah. i didnt work at all in the lab during french...i spent forever trying to make MSN messenger work, and it finally began to 10 minutes towards the end of class. bastards. spent my frees in the library...maria kept asking tima which boys in SPIN magazine tima wanted to bang and it was highly amusing until she began to point to anything with a penis. it was sad. attended another one of tima and aishas band practices...the funniest thing in the world was listening to the music and then hearing random jungle mambo drums. wtf?? oh its only aisha wishing she had a real drum set and using the resources from the music room. drowsy from boredom thru bio and math. actually math was really sad cuz jenny and i stared at the clock for like 25 minutes counting down the seconds till the end of class. procrastinated. i need to study. ughhh. [must learn to get over stuff more easily.]

Sunday, May 02, 2004

if i went to all 3 shows i could die happy. im only going to one. possibly two. :-/ if only the LI show was later...

6/14..... "The Downtown" / Farmingdale (Long Island), NY
with:// Believers Never Die tour with: Anberlin ~ Don't Look Down ~ Punchline

6/16..... "The Knitting Factory" / New York, NY
with:// Believers Never Die tour with: Anberlin ~ Don't Look Down ~ Punchline

6/18..... "Starland Ballroom" / Sayreville, NJ
with:// Believers Never Die tour with: Anberlin ~ Don't Look Down ~ Punchline

bad day. dad massively pissed at me. im massively pissed at him so its all good. he took away the digital camera but ill prolly get it back soon. my cousin got me a ticket for the 6/18 fob show in nj. i hope i can go. im understanding chem.

we got our digital camera the night of the SoCo/YC concert, and my dad gave it to me today. wtf is that? so i was messing around with it and its so cool. gah. i can film stuff (max. like 3 hrs) on it too which got me all happy cuz i was thinking about that and the fob concert. i only have 17 pix now but my dad is getting a 256 MB card or something..right.

Saturday, May 01, 2004

noras webshots! yay soco/yc pix. and this strange one of me.

It seems very hard for some people--especially those in high places, but also those striving for high places--to grasp a simple truth: The United States does not belong in Iraq. It is not our country. Our presence is causing death, suffering, destruction, and so large sections of the population are rising against us. Our military is then reacting with indiscriminate force, bombing and shooting and rounding up people simply on "suspicion." >

i got up at 3:30 PM, after going to sleep at 3:30 AM on friday. my timing is too good. so there is no cough medicine in my house. i have been drinking tea and this soothing chinese herbal loveliness but i really need some medincine to cure my fucking throat and sinus congestion. omg im croaking...fuck fuck fuck. my mother was giving me this huge lecture when i got up (and was still woozy) about how im probably sick because of my downed immune system, lack of sleep, diet, etc.

but thats not how i got sick. im convinced ghoussoub got me and nora sick (because we both sit RIGHT IN FRONT OF HER in class and are the only two sick), and we in turn got our little circle of friends sick. its the only reason why were all dying of sore throats and no one else is.

SoCo and YC concert review from MTV that i dont like very much. alex isnt with yellowcard any more you mofos. and apparently i mixed up 'if i die' and bittersweet symphony. hmm.

today: school was complete and utter shit. the chem test can kiss my ass. fuck it. my throat is dead (it hurts so badly), voice is almost gone, water hurts to swallow, and i have huge bruises on:

-both knees
-parts of my thighs
-both upper arms/armpits
-left side of chest/boob.
-right side
-right shoulder
-right forearm

OWWWW! motherfucking barricades!!

yesterday: SOMETHING CORPORATE. YELLOWCARD. THE FORMAT. so. much. fun. ahh. afterschool, necla, aisha, and i hailed a cab and took it to the roseland ballroom on 52nd and 8th by 4:30. we were almost at the end of the block and second barricade checkpoint, but at least we werent around the block three times like for the ataris. aisha and i actually had this crazy idea of going to long island to see punchline in Long Island and then coming back for soco...but it never happened. sadly. so we sat around for a while and then i saw jackie from the punchline show. i forgot her name for a sec and yelled 'jaaaccckkkiieee!!' and she turned around and hung out with us for a bit. she and aisha went to haggle money from ppl to get a ticket (she got one), and then tima, haifa, maria, nora, tommy-david, and zooz came. hung out some more, and then jackie used her 'connections' to move us 2 by 2 up to the first barricade. hehe. we got mass amounts of free smaplers, pins, etc. saw steve (of course). lol one girl that i started talking to i couldve sworn i had seen before was one of luis's friends from his pictures. lol i was like 'heyy!' and she looked a little confused but was really nice. so they let us in, and we RAN to the very front of the venue, and we were right next to the barricade, thank you jackie and joanna!

the floor filled up really quickly, and we waited around for who were thought we the format to set up. turns it they were 'sleeping at last' or something (it greatly amuses me how were still debating their name), and were...decent. the lead singer reminded me of the lovechild of soco andrew and MBR andrew. that would be great if his name WAS andrew.

after they were done, this guy who i thought was clutch for a second came onstage and only after 2 songs did we find out that THEY were the format. i love the format. i love them so much. they kicked to much ass it was insane. and tima and i were in LOVE with the guitarist (who haifa met later) we dubbed the lovechild of TBS adam (appearance) and jesper from the sounds (keyboarding and dancing). i love lovechildren. u kno wat, i just liked all of them. and they were just so good. i dont think ive ever liked an opening band id never heard of so much. sean from yellowcard showed up along the side and everyone in our section noticed i was wearing the same acceptance shirt as him. *big smile* twas fate hehe.

then SOCO! ahh. ahh. ahh. im in love with andrew. like its sick how much i love him. [jackie the little bum went to imx earlier and got to meet everyone. either at imx or at the back of the roseland where they always are. lucky ass bugger. i wanted to meet andrew and co. and sean. poo.] when they came on...it was just a massive rush of blood to the head. lol clutch came out in a pirate costume. funniest thing in my life. the set list:

-I Woke Up In a Car
-21 and Invincible: got us all pumped up...thank god they played it second or first. first?
-Punk Rock Princess: jackie and i went insane.
-Konstantine: i loved it. it is so much better live, especially when u have everyone else singing along. andrew gave a little schpeel about how he ''doesnt give a shit if you download music'' and such.
-Space: "HEY!" crazy loud. it was fun.
-Only Ashes
-(cover of) Hey Ya: even better than the original. seriously. andrew is a crazy front man and was all over the place.
-iF U C Jordan
-Hurricane
-Fall
-Drunk Girl
-Ruthless
-If I Die (sean from YC came out for it)
-Down

andrew is possibly one of the best frontmen ever. when hes not playing the piano hes bouncing around, jumping off amps, and rocking the hell out. i love him. and nobody can wear flannel like him and pete. they wear it like nobodys business. and by the end it was completely soaked. the new soco guitarist (replacing will) is pretty good. i was bouncing around like a complete nutcase and yelling the words...and completely killing my side. agh but twas all worth it. i liked how andrew kept showing their gratitude for us, and it seemed really sincere. sighs.

after they finished, tima, tommy-david, zooz, and maria left for home, and aisha, necla, nora, and haifa decided they didnt want to stay in front for yellowcard, and opted for the back cuz they thought it would get too insane and they were too hot and stuff. i protested but they went anyway and i was stubborn as hell and stayed. made friends with people up front.

YC took forever to set up. gah damn your little tropical backdrops that took so long to get up...so they came on stage. ppl went crazy. they did

-believe
-miles apart
-october nights (i think that really just made my night)
-big apple heartbreak' (did they...?)
-ocean avenue
-avondale
-life of a salesman
-starstruck
(+ more but i didnt stay)

ryan sed onstage there were like 3000 ppl there...dunno. the ppl in my section...werent rowdy at all and that kinda made it..boring? sean was jumping around and coming over to our side and singing to our faces, the new pete bassist guy looked like he was 40, ryan looked really tired. they all looked a bit out of their element. they were def better at irving. they had really hardcore fans front and center, but otherwise it wasnt as crazy as for soco. maybe its just people were tired. i got kinda exasperated and frustrated that the show wasnt as good as i thought it would be, people around me werent as pumped as i was, and my friends were all out of the pit. so i got the big red head security guard to lift me out of there. he grabbed me around the waist and grabbed my legs and hoisted me over his head. kinda freaky. all the girls coming out of the front from crowdsurfing were half exposed skanks that looked like they had just been raped. i saw joe making fun of one to her face which made me smile. the roseland has really cool security guards. they really take care of you and arent arrogant assholes. they give u water and they chat with you between shows. and when necla almost passes out from dehydration the redhead security guard gave me a water bottle (which i drank from first) and then i passed it to necla. good man he was..:)

so i went around to that back, keeping an eye out for andrew and ppl, and necla/aisha/noura/haifa. i was singing along to all the songs but it mustve looked like i was talking to myself lol. i got my $20 soco shirt and cami's, and continued looking and calling. finally i got really fed up and left. outside i got lps stickers which made me happy. i had a random epiphany that i should go to the back of the roseland where jackie had met the guys before, so i did. i saw brian and called out his name. he was really nice and i got a picture and got him to sign my CD cover. he called me sweetie which made me swoon cuz im a freaking dork. im the ultimate dorkus. but i love myself for that. :P went home, found out that haifa and aisha had gone back into the pit and they had all left like 10 mins after me. i was hyperactive for an hour and a half, and then my energy died in a second and i passed out in bed. this morning i discovered four new bruises.

kill the drama.