kill the drama.

i rolled out of bed and met chiara, ana, and cynthia up at marymont on 84th and 5th. we walked around for a bit and popped in and out of random delis before we ate at at one and went to loews to see without a paddle. wow ive never summed up a day in one sentence like that. without a paddle is the funniest thing ever. we sed bye and went home. where i did nothing.

so aisha might go to vancouver alone and see fob after all. i dont know how i feel about it. i want her to go because

1) its fully do-able.
2) shes might miss the december show and she has to see them
3) i dont want to be the one bringing everyone down
4) somehow she has more reason to see them than i do

but im also pretty torn about it. i dont know what to do with myself. i dont know what to think any more. part of me is kind of like 'FUCK IT youre seeing them in december any way.' but on the other hand its just really tearing me up inside. *emo tears*

my mother ruins everything.

posted by Jennie @ 11:24 PM